Just read a news just now, and i am fucking shocked.

One of the boys before flowers actress Jang Ja-yeon found dead at her house on 7 March 2009.
She plays one of the mean girls,Sunny who always bully Jandi. Her death has been deemed sucidal.

Sigh, another sucidal case from the celebrity industry.
When i watched boys before flowers now, I will definitely be reminded of her.
Yeaps.. that show is my current favourite show.

I remembered once xiao xuan asked me: aye kah jen, u like joon pyo ryte? so you want to be jandi? I replied: Nahs, i rather be Miranda ( one of the mean girls in bbf )

I know its kinda random and bo link with her death. but aiyas just want to mention that I think the mean girls in the show has make more impact for me than the main actress la.

Her sucidal reminds me of Ishi from Soul, Superband contestant. ( Soul was my 2nd favourite band )

Yes yes. He commited sucide too. He left two years ago, and i remember i cried alot at that time. And now i am typing this, my eyes are tearing already. I took photo with him b4 but i am kinda lazy to upload it becos it is from my old camera and i look really fat in that photo so i am not gonna show it out. And each time I look at the photo, i would be saddened with the fact that he is not in the world anymore. :(

And yes, he is appearing in a repeated channel 8 show that is aired on weekdays 5.30pm, wu chu cai hong. And everytime he appear i would be happy and sad at the same time. Happy becos i am seeing him again and sad becos I would not see him in other tv programs ever again. :(

Sometimes, I really do wonder.. what actually drives one to sucidal? Yes, the answer is depression. However, looking into it, what actually stimulate the drive into the action of commiting sucide? Is it some devils beside your ear telling you to sell your life or is it you think you no longer have the courage to live on? But since you have the courage to die why not have the courage to live.

Yes yes, I do get the fact that the courage need to live is needed more than the courage to die. But sucide is still not a solution ryte?
I know I am not in a position to judge one or commenting about the people who attempts sucide but i am just curious why would someone tried to commit sucide? Does it really remove that pain in life or you simply just put the pain on the loves who are still alive.

I do not know alot but i know one most important life theory which is " Life is precious ."

I am sorry that this post is emo. but i would be back to my normal blogging very much soon.

RIP Sunny from BBF
RIP Ishi

xoxo jen