" jen, are you alright? " yeahs.. i am fine, just a dissapointed. :( 
i said that while wiping the tears left in the corner of my eye.
honestly speaking i dun wanna cry and dun wanna let anybody see that fragile side of me.
helpless i must say, i think i already put in whatever i could but it still doesn't help. i dunno why.

Perhaps, i have a huge attitude problem. i am way so stubborn thinking that I am right. Yeahs. i admit that point. i swear i wanted to leave at that very moment. but if i do, i dun tink i can go back again.

I am only 17years old, I still have a long way to learn what is the right way. Couldn't there be another chance or leeway? i dunno. I know i am stubborn, but till now I don't know what goes wrong. How can i admit my mistake when I dunno wat is wrong? freaking stubborn. yes, i know. I am trying to change too. my perception of this.

Everything just fell, i couldn't grab it on time. I totally lose the focus already. I need somebody to direct me back and allow me to have alittle reliance.

i feel a need to cry. shucks. so what he saw me crying? could it change anything? does it matter? shucks. mayb he didn't see. mayb he did? oh well, whatever. nothing changes and nothing matters me now besides school work, school work and more school work.

oh well. i guess i shouldn't whine anymore. there is still so much more things waiting for me to do. i can't afford to lose time. oh yes. just ate mcdonalds. like since forever i have eaten that. i feel alittle better now. :) double fish fillet burger was major yums and i actually polish off all the fries when i dun eat them. yesyes, it is due to the seaweed shaker fries. honestly, its one of the best creation for Mac ever !

yes, i cannot find my thumbdrive. thank you to that fucking bitch/bastard. freak you seriously. zero conscience izit? wish u lose your stuffs too, u desperate idiot who cannot afford a thumbdrive.
at least i tink i can concentrate better now, cos at least is confirmed. i ain't tat worried anymore.

anyway, wun b blogging for some time. photos perhaps facebook? it is easier to upload photos dere.