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my inner voice is a fucking bitch

2010-06-04T22:34:00.002+08:00

i talked to myself today. here is the convo i had between myself and myself.

" Hey bitch ! can't do your paper today uh? wow ! totally expected. mugging at one last minute, how can you expect remembering all those fucking concepts that are mentioned in the lecture notes. OH YES. its a fucking 12/40 points you lost. thats a freaking 6 percent of the subject and it could be matter of 2 fucking grades. you totally deserved that for not putting yr hard work and being super lazy.

Seriously, why are you even carrying hope to get to a good local Uni ? U think that half fucked gpa could get you anywhere? just stop studying after poly la, and go work. dun fucking waste few more years acheiving nothing.
Even you heng heng get into an uni of your choice, do u seriously think u can succeed? OMG. with that fucking attitude of yours, you definitely will b a failure. your intelligence is also a big failure too, you prolly gonna drop out of UNI provided you get into one.

Fucking shitz you. why are you even taking calculus? Hopeless girl la you. you shld give up your chance to some others who wants to take the subj or someone who will work harder in acheiving what they want and not someone like you who do things half fucked.

you always mention abt dreams, you always wanna acheive something. BUT SERIOUSLY, do u work hard for it? did you? if you did, you wouldn't be so unconfident with your mid-sems. 3 fucking subjects, not one you have any hope of passing. great failure isn't it? even you get to pass, i bet you r not gonna do well. so stop wasting your time dreaming of an uni bcos if you dun work hard, you dun get wat u want.

your fucking gpa was pretty fine during your year 1.1 days. year 1.2, you are totally complacent n actually went to take exams with not much studying done. wow ! u really thought u cld maintain yr gpa uh? haha ! u deserve that bitch.

acheived a 3.5 gpa last sem? u seriously think its a big deal? u think u work hard enuff? no u didn't, it was based on mostly luck and good project mates.
look at some friends and some people who have damn good results. they are like 3.7, 3.8, 3.9. what are you compared to them? moreover, their GPA is cummulative and yours is nothing. doing well for just one particular semester just doesn't work if you continue to be complacent abt it.

you better buck up and pull up your socks and give your 100 percent to your studies. "

i never knew i have to blog about this

2010-05-28T04:51:00.002+08:00

i m not sure if u wld read this.
those twitter dramas. end it already.

me being mean and using hurtful words, i m guilty of it.
but please understand, a clap takes two hands.
my apology is sincere, believe it or not. i wish u could accept it.

i m just really dissapointed that all these have to happen.

i m not good in my words. think whatever you want me to be.
you cried, i teared too. but nahs. dun think u cared nw.

okay, bye.

taxi driver made my day

2010-05-27T09:56:00.003+08:00

here i m in my retail informatics class. blogging since i finished my work already. bored.

i took a cab to school. yeap again. =.=
i mentioned in my twitter b4 that i would at least save a thousand dollars on cab fare lo. i rather use that money to buy a LV wallet or support an african children lo.

anyway, day started like really dreadful again. woke up late n those lifeless routine like washing hair, brushing teeth washing face. blahs.

took taxi at ard 8.50am in bedok. den halfway, the uncle said " hey girl, if you are late for your classes, what will happened? " i answered " oh 15mins late, my attendance cannot be marked" i said it super casually uh.
he looked at his watch for a moment then he started speeding. whoots ! so mad happy la. he is totally rushing for me. ok to be honest i abit scared cos i was't wearing my seat belt.

anw, when i reach TP area, as usual i ask him to turn to the lane to TP taxi stand. den he said " there very congested and very jam. y dun i stop you near the bus stop den u run yrself to class which is better " WAHS. i didn't thought abt this for 3rd year in my poly life can. the uncle is a total genius. i stopped at bus stop and den gave him 7.80 my taxi fAre. my cheapest taxi fare to tp ever ! no kidding at all !

when i reach class. i thought about it. he was totally being so nice la. he could have went to the lane and with the waiting time, he could earn a couple of bucks more. T.T mad touched can ! next time i could just stop at the bus stop instead liao. i totally save alot. somemore he speed for me ! even more savings ! :D

thanks taxi uncle !

anw, wishes elizabeth ( taxi aunty ) a happy 19th birthday. although i have not known her for long but she has been a really great friend. hope she does get a surprise with the cake later. :D

ok gtg ! i m in class ! omfg.

it's a friday.. but..

2010-05-22T01:13:00.002+08:00

it's suppose to be light hearted day for some rest.
but things are so overwhelming as there are so much things to do.
worse, i got very bothered by someone, something..

i know i sld b doing work now. but i just want some rest for now. perhaps watch a nice movie n wake up in the morning to do work.

ok. shall drink my meiji chocolate milk and watch lindsay.lo's parent trap. hope to cheer myself up alittle :)

oh yeah, thanks audrey :)

go to that handphone shop at your own risk

2010-05-17T21:49:00.003+08:00

from my fb :

" Jen Chia this is the first time i ever got so mad with a shopkeeper. In summary, fixing of phone took 5 freaking hours intead of their promise of 1 hour, and they add on 20dollars to the bill which is 65dollars. Lastly, the phone was half fucked, it was not fully fixed. To piss me of further, the shopkeeper said " you are not rushing for time right ? " this is also my first time crying and shouting at a complete stranger. :'( "

i really hav no mood to say the entire story. i did whine abit in my twitter before the worse came.

its so wtf. 5 hours wasted which i could have done calculus tut or even sleep. i dun even sleep 5 hours pls. n i could attended 3 lectures with that amt of time. Even playing computer is even better.

gotta do my cal tut with a fucking pissed attitude.

p.s. the handphone repair shop is 2nd handphone repair shop around ntuc cashier there. not the one near sportslink, that wan is 1st wan. the handphone repair shop is near some makeup store.

blah !

2010-05-16T23:58:00.002+08:00

handphone spoil.
reason? no idea. :(
using lao kok kok spare phone now,keep hanging. sld i go borrow a spare phone from friends? asked few people n dey dun have. :(

kk. nuff said. gonna go get it fixed 2mr.

camera spoil, handphone spoil n lappy ageing. wat is happening to my gadgets manz? all too bimbotic?

calculus tut - not done. *slaps self*
RP project - didn't do much ! only the budget part. *slaps self harder* shall work harder 2mr. i promise not to let down my grp mates.
OSIP - not really settled, n i dun tink i sld actually rely 100 percent on it n i shall find local SIP too.

knn. the only right thing that has gone right is prolly i filed my notes properly into my disney files. k, the only console.

blah ! shall stop whining. hope for better days !

BLAH BLAH !

my food enemity with buses

2010-05-14T19:37:00.002+08:00

fucking sucky. i dropped food on the bus... yes AGAIN.

i have no idea. my food seems to have enemity with the bus. this is the 3rd time of the year. agrrrrr ! i m so hungry naoz. :(

1st time was kim gary milk tea on bus 14, which was to direction to ORCHARD !
2nd time was in Japan, also milk tea ! can u believe, i spilled milk tea on the travel bus leh. and everyone knew me, so i was freaking paiseh. and the milk tea 300 yen, close to 5 bucks ok ! wtf. expensive lo.

3rd time is now ! except its not milk tea now. it was my dinner, pork porridge. BUT HONESTLY THIS ISN'T MY FAULT NOW. cos i put at the side. den the lady boss nvr close properly la, when the bus brake, the porridge went pouring down. it was super hot and i do not have tissue.

i really really didn't know wat to do. and i can feel passengers talking bad behind my back, literally my back. :(
i called mum after i got down, cos my hse only few stops frm bedok. i told her abt it and i know i sld hav told the bus captain or smth. but den i was reaching home alr so yeah. :( i do feel guilty lo.

n when i picked up the lid, fingers got burnt by hot porridge. i felt like crying n helpless pls. :(

I HAVE TO EXTREMELY CAREFUL NOW WHEN I BRING FOOD TO PORRIDGE. I PROMISE, REALLY ! :(

made in candy

2010-05-13T19:57:00.003+08:00

just made a trip to made in candy with elizabeth and alvin ! :D
bought 2 packets of sweets. ate one alr.

it is really really a fruitful trip, learning loads of things and knowing more about customised candies. so colourful , make one very happy and cheery !
super sweet too ! i likeeeee !

bombarded the owners super loads of qs, and find out they are really very aspiring teenagers with a passion to give people satisfaction. was really very interesting and dey are very nice !

one of the owners even made a special heart lollipop for me ! :D
free leh ! i aunty, so i like ! :)

cute? haha ! i mean the lollipop not me ! he wanted to do a rose, but it didn't succeed :(
awww.. alittle dissapointed yeah cos i pretty much wanted a rose more. but its okay ! the heart is nice too :)

it does makes one happy doesn't it? so candylicious and pretty. very sweet uh ! so cheery !
unfortunately, dey only have 1 store which is at novena, united square. super far frm my hse ! :(
difficult to buy nia. gonna buy when the event starts.

k contacts lenses are hurting my eyes now and i need some sleep. gotta wake up later to do MM tutorial n help alvin with rp3 tutorial. sighhhh ~ back to rush the hectic projects schedule. DAMN !

haha ~ talk to everyone soon ~ bb !

i must blog happily !

2010-05-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

erms. sorry ah. if any of my recent blog entries depresses any one of u :)

ok la ! i promise to blog happily ! :) ............ if possible ! hahaha !

thanks to those who cared. little but significant ! :)
lifts alittle spirit up.

anw, i took peaktures of shopping purchases/hauls ! anyone interested in seeing it? kinda bimbotic too. i gotta stop shopping like seriously. getting broke and bankrupt.

AND I AM GIVING OUT 10 DOLLARS TO WHO CAN SOLVE MY COMPUTER PROBLEM !
THERE ARE CERTAIN WEBBIES I CAN'T LOAD, FOR DUNNO WHAT FUCKING REASON. THIS SERIOUSLY BOTHERS ME ALOT ! SO ANYONE WHO CAN GIVE ME THE SOLUTION I WILL SEND U A 10 SGD. AM VERY SERIOUS. ITS OK IF U ARE A STRANGER !

mail me at: phobe20@hotmail.com if you have the solution and you would be 10 bucks richer ! :)
p.s. provided if your solution works.

i guess thats really me

2010-05-08T01:25:00.003+08:00

y do i get mistaken with my intentions when i dun even mean anything bad?

forget abt explaination. its pointless anyway. no one wants to hear, they just believe what they think.

so just let the things to be what they are. i guess thats really me.

P.S. preaching is unneccessary.

little nyonya, ep8

2010-05-06T18:40:00.002+08:00

currently there is repeat telecast on channel8, weekdays.

ep 8 today, which never fails to make me cry like mad ! :'(
its totally a 凄美的爱情。

也许能死在一起，也是一种幸福。至少不用受生离死别的痛苦。
这样的结果，可能是最好的结果。

sadly, i tried finding Little Nyonya on youtube and tudou, i cannot find ! :(
i used to watch in on tudou, which all eps are avaliable dere. but now dun have alr :( . i tink it is due to some copyright or something. :(
so sad !!!!!!!!!! :(

ON A LIGHTER NOTE.
do u know Dai Yang Tian have 2 girlfriends before and those are the only women he ever slept with. He lost his virginity at the age of 20 and he is 25 now. He said for the last three years, he have never had sex.

Haha ! okies. found that info on the newspaper that is on the net okayz. nt i stalk him horz.
shld b a reliable source la. cos that's not a tabloid newspaper that only contains rumours.

ALRIGHT ! off to find little nyonya episodes on the net ! shall end here abruptly ! bye ! :)

dead zombie

2010-05-03T16:37:00.004+08:00

pretty much like my tittle.

have been really quiet during classes. partially, reason is bcos of paying more attention to lessons and the other reason, is that I am being really closed up?

i guess i am so invisible, till my existence is not being regarded.
tired of this.

my tears are so insignificant. crying just seems to nothing much to be concerned abt.
how am i suppose to carry on the entire obstacle? the road infront seems to be so bleak.
tired of that.

tell me, instead of thinking why do i react this way, have you ever cared about why i behave like this? did u even tried asking what i really wanted?
are you gonna be there during my most difficult time of my life or u just gonna let me be like this?

just oh so dissapointing, isn't it?

like an ugly duckling, lost and unwanted.

took OSIP form just now. perhaps, a change to somewhere beyond the red dot island, could make myself a better person. as well as to prepare myself for further studies, might wanna head to australia to study after poly.

nope, i am not doing this for a spite in the moment. i wanna fufil certain dreams of my life, walk a route i have never walked b4. but I shall still see what future holds though. sometimes, it is still quite impossible to fufil dem all.
don't want to them to be so foggy and bleak.

wishing for better days ahead,
xoxo jen.

would you hold my hand and take me through the journey?

beyond that mask

2010-04-28T21:20:00.003+08:00

i think i m neglecting this blog . i no longer blog with piccas and i bored people with wordy entries.

not to mention lazy as well. tokyo pics not even uploaded.

whatever. i always used busy as an excuse, but do i make time? no, i do not. i practically throw time away everyday.

it is 2nd week of school alr. really under tremendous stress. and relationship with people on rocking stages. i started distanced myself from most of the people. i also talked less alr. i find it pointless whining anymore. esp, whining to those who didn't care. i guess i rather just keep it to myself unless i can see their concern towards me. its okay, bcos i am used of being outcasted alr. sometimes, its better to be alone and quiet.

why bothered to ask what happened to me if you do not care right? i guess i m also unimportant in their eyes. seen true colours and i think i sldn't be so gullible anymore. i sld not assume that people cared about me. they do not. they are selfish, they are living for themselves. so am i.

yeah, hurtful it may be. but i will get over it.

forget being a hypocrite, because you never ever cared. i am all alone.

off doing my international marketing tutorial after helping junyi to order from gmarket.

xoxo,
jen.

mad woman on bus 69

2010-04-21T19:08:00.002+08:00

super kaopei.

i better blog this in case i forget any details. fucking mad sway la.

after my mall management lecture ended at 6pm, i went to take bus 69 as usual. the bus was really squeezy. i was the "lucky" last few people that went up to the bus.

perhaps around 2 stops after tp bus stop, this middle age fair indian woman boarded the bus. she came up pushing me. and i even let go of the handle that i was holding to allow her a space to stand. ok fine. nvm. i m a youngster. i can stand in the bus without a handle.

anw, i saw her wanting to talk 2 me. so i took out of one my earpiece. i couldn't hear bcos my itouch was blasting with really loud music.

so she said to me,
Mad woman: i just don't understand youngsters. there are so much space at the back and yet they don't want to move. (don't think she is insulting me la, cos she saying in general mah)
Me: *smiles abit*, its like that one. ( i literally say that, yeah it is singlish i know)
MW: huh? i don't understand you.
Me: I mean its standard, they are always like that.
MW: Oh, so you mean the youngsters are always putting their earpiece, pretending not to hear and takes up so much space. ( fucking insulting ryte. ok la. still ok. cos she nvr directly shoot me also )

so i ignored her and put back my earpiece.

again, she moved her mouth. so, i took out one of my earpiece.

MW: are you in tertiary education?
Me: erms yeap. i am in a polytechnic.

ok, world's greatest insult started

MW: tertiary education, so tall. yet speaking in this type of english. "like this one, like that one". eeyer. so shameful, should go back to primary one.

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFF. ccb. what did i do? how did i offend her?

k fine. i admit my english isn't that impressive or rather its quite bad. but do i deserve that sort of insults. i merely spoke less than 3 sentences to her and yet i can get such an insult leh.
if u r asking how is her attitude b4 that insult, it was really nice. in a sacarstic way but it was tolerable.

crazy much? fucking bitch la. i didn't rebuke la, partially its bcos i didn't dare. :'(
BUT the point is, shld i even stoop myself to her level.

yeah, true enuff. my english is fucking bad. i prolly can't finish a proper sentence myself. i used to get B and C's for my english during pri n sec sch. but is it so bad that i sld go back to primary one?

but honestly indian aunty. wat makes you more superior than me? perhaps, your english is way better than mine. perhaps, you have a decent job, you prolly earn 1k per month? and yeah you are way older than me, older than my mum. but u know what? you seem pathetic and i shall explain why.

firstly, you have to take a BUS and you are so bored till you wanna insult someone that is barely half of yr age. at the timing of 6 plus in the evening, a middle age woman like you shld b looking forward to go home to have dinner with husband and your children. but i bet you have neither bcos if you do hav children, you would have them compared to me. perhaps you have a husband, but i m sure he is someone that cannot give you a good life. usually after work, your husband would fetch you after work uh? and even he really loves you, he wld take a bus with you.

so shameful. so old liao n yet an old hag. continue mad like this, confirm die as a spinster.

so what makes you more superior than me? your old age? it is definitely NOT. bcos this is call 以大欺小. loosely translated as older bullying younger.
you still have to take the same bus with someone like me, it does not not make you more superior. your english so good go b english teacher lo, dun bo dai ji go insult pple.

disgusting much? after me, she went to bother this girl who is not listening to music. i totally pity her bcos i saw that girl's face seems so miserable, like being bothered.

agrrrrr. like angry la. fuck her social norms, fuck insults, fuck english.

i'll shove a 10inch banana into her ass. fucker.

first day of school with a sprinkling rain

2010-04-19T19:13:00.002+08:00

just ran back home from the bus stop, drenched all over. the rain is really heavy.

anw, stressful 3 lectures today. totally exhausted with the theory and esp calculus. the maths part is totally giving me a headache. i wish i have paid loads of attention during secondary sch.

pretty heavy rain after the last lecture. so i decided to walk walk in tamp one, and met mei ting alittle while. i bought an uniqlo polo dress ! mei ting say i siao cos i bought alot of uniqlo stuffs in japan alr, yet i m still buying smth dere.
ha. i just feel my clothing is nvr enuff. lol.

nth much special. just sprinting in heavy rain makes me kinda pathetic. waiting for the heater to heat up though.

anw, no classes 2mr. but i hav to b back in sch for those jap merchanding part. agrrr. totally kill some of my plans. internet is really mad slowww. i tink its due to the rain.
stop rainning omg.

雨下个不停，心就好像得了风湿。

3am random blogging.

2010-04-19T03:10:00.004+08:00

less than 6hours time, i m gonna have my first lecture of the academic year. wah kaoz.
i m in year 3 senior year. i tink i m gnna faint cos its final year. i can't believe it. its like i m still in my secondary 4 not long ago.

anw, so coincidental cos my first lecture lecturer would b mr roche. haha. i rmb the first lecture i attended in year 2 is also him ! i remember detesting him so much n i called him mr roach. haha.. yeah lame. but i like him now ! cos he is a good teacher. but he totally scare me on the first day of his lecture. how cool to start an academic year with a cool lecture. haha.

nahs. i m not anxious at all. hellooo. its the 3rd year alr. how nervous cld i be man? i guess the freshmen have to be anxious. i prolly just look see look see 2mr. haha.

still, i wonder what kind of day wld it be later.....

my new timetable

2010-04-15T13:07:00.002+08:00

whoa. in less than a week time, it is gonna be lao niang's senior year in tp. namely year3.
i feel so old totally.

everything feels so fast, like as if yesterday i just graduated from my secondary school. what turf m i talking abt? its nt fast la. just that the time passes alr, thats y i feel its fast.

anw, timetable for next year has freshly been out today. i must say there is good n bad points abt my timetable. b4 starting any blabbering. let me just roughly list my timetable here.

i am in 3r05, calculus class. this also means i m not gonna have many classmates like other people in the course. oh well, hope it is a good class. :)

MON- 9-11 lecture, 1hour break, 12-3 *2 lectures*
TUES- 9-11 calculus lecture (what turf, 15 pple hav wat lecture siol)
WED- 5-6 mall management lecture (lame shit, come sch one hour)
THURS- 9-1 (2 tutorials)
FRI- 2-6 (tutorials)

bad points for my timetable: NO FREE DAYS AT ALL ! WTFFF. super ccb la. as u can see i have 2 days with only one lame lesson. for tues, still ok i can go out after 11am. but wed is fucking lame, i come sch for 1 freaking hour and its in the evening. omg. kill me. please have less mall managment lectures pls. omg omg.

good points: NO BREAKS ! my total break for the week is prolly on monday, 1 hour break. ok thanks. i totally dun need breaks in poly. my aim is just to finish every lessons, n faster go home/go out. i hate breaks in poly totally. esp in year one, i used to have breaks like 6 freaking hours. i can't go home bcos when i go home i have to tendency to skip lessons. moreover, during breaks, i m practically doing nth. just slacking ard sch, chatting with friends. even eating takes less than an hour. esp, when u have no one to hang out with, u just hope that u dun have breaks. i m serious.

2nd good point: as u can see my lessons are rather short. which is a yay ! i m officially not so busy.
however, i do understand the fact to buck up on my studies.

SMU, better tidy up the uni and wait for my arrival ! omggggggg ! please let me get in.

me back from japan

2010-04-14T19:56:00.003+08:00

hello peepz ! me back from japan alr ! :)
miss me yoz?

haha, actually back the day b4 yesterday alr. :P just no time to update. cos i have so many things to see. erms, actually nth impt, just fb, email n twitter. hehe.

my luggage is mad heavy and so over the limit. i went to japan with 15 kg luggage came back with a 32.4kg luggage. more than double ! omg, i m so amazed by myself totally. i bought 2 branded bags. juicy couture for myself and burberry for mum. =D i m so glad she is so happy for her burberry bag. totally worth that 500 sing dollars.
also, i lugged 3 soft toys from disneyland. okok. haul/purchases blog entry wld be included later.

for now, i just wanna summarise my trip to tokyo n do proper entries later.

JAPAN TOKYO IS AWESOME. LIKE SERIOUSLY.
cherry blossoms are GORGEOUS.
people are generally NICE.
standard of living is HIGH, hence things are really EXPENSIVE.
food is DELICIOUS.
shopping is WONDERFUL.

everything is good, except for my camera spoil part. so sad la. my trusty 2 n half year sony camera spoil on the day of disneyland. wtf. sway max. that was my 16th birthday present from mum lo. xibei sad.

spoil as in sometimes cannot take picture cos it keeps vibrating. however, sometimes can. so i tried to take as many when it is fine. but i also gt take via my handphone camera n borrowed tiffany's cam. hope she is able to send me some photos soon !

anw, i wanna save more money now. cos i wanna go Hongkong's disneyland ! hopefully before i graduate from poly. plus a LV bag for mum. please wish me luck. :)

oh yeah, class for next year is out. imma in 3r05, calculus class. like finally after 6 freaking years, i m nt in the 4th class anymore. so weird to say 3r05 instead of 2r04. lol !

ok i m off to play pet society. its a japan theme now ! omg. ok byebye.

DAY ZERO

2010-04-04T14:23:00.006+08:00

wheee day zero has officially arrived ! in just less than 12 hours time, i wld be in a 7 hour flight to japan, tokyo. mad excited cos i have never been dere before lo ! u people must miss me ah.

anw, pack finish liao. now waiting mum to buy back mee siam b4 i go slowly prepare everyting n have dinner in airport n meet up my peers later to tokyo. whoots ! hahaha !
i will not bring my laptop dere uh ! its heavy n i dun wanna spend time playing a computer while everyting is gonna be hell of fun. gotta bring itouch though, i will try to tweet if dere is free wifi. :)

guess what !
DISNEY PRINCESS BEWARE ! bcos this mutha fucking princess is gotta rock the house ! i might replace one of ya uh !

hahaha ! just kidding ah. i mad love disney princess man !

i used to imagine i m one of them when i was younger.... erms, i still imagine i m dem up till now. >< okay, another correction ! i am a princess myself ! wheee ! btw, there is an additional princess added, it is tiana fron princess and the frog. first black princess ever. =.= my fave is belle from beauty and the beast and ariel from little mermaid. :D SUPER MAD LOVE WITH BELLE !

so excited for disneyland. gonna take so so so many photos in an enchanted area. alright ! hope my trip is a fruitful one and fill with excitement.
be back in 12 april. much loves, jen ! :D

P.S. dun anyhow sms or call me ah. unless u wanna pay for my autoroaming charges and yr overseas calls. :)

ONE DAY B4 THE DAY

2010-04-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

omgggg ! can't believe i m gonna set off to japan, tokyo in just 24 hours time. in ard 36 hours time, i am gonna be in JAPAN !

KONICHIWA ! WATASHI WA KAH JEN DESU.

hehe. packing 90 percent done. just have to check thru again. i m damn scared of forgeting something la. cos i m mad blur. i m so afraid !! but thanks ah ! i ranted to chris yesterday ! feel much better. yiling also made me feel better, thanks ah ! :) n thanks to all the friends whom i asked mad loads of questions of japan. thanks thanks thanks. i can't list all names here. but thanks.

anw, i m going thru my checklist again. hope everyting is dere, hope everything is fine, hope i look alright/less ugly n stuff like that.

xoxo from paranoid girl !

happy 19th birthday ben na na

2010-03-29T23:11:00.004+08:00

YOO HO ! BEFORE CLOCK STRIKES MIDNIGHT, BEFORE CINDERELLA GOES BACK HOME. GOTTA WISH MY DEAREST BEST GIRL FRIEND A VERY HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY ! WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeeeeeee. olddie 19th liao. got lv bag liao.

gratz gratz ! may our friendship lasts and hope i can wish u happy 100th birthday from 89 years later from now. :)

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anw, had a rather tiring day doing all the japan preparation. anw, will be going dere on 4th April till 12 April. 9 days 8 nights. omg ! imagine all the clothes i will be bringing manz !

my shopping damages for today: marks and spencer jeggings ( mad cool, jeans+leggings), newlook pink cardi ( wanted the blazer but oh well same colour), dorothy perkins jeans (awesome buy) and new camera memory card of 4gb (dey dun have smaller ones liao,sadded)

okies. investment investment. the most damage is the jeggings of 89 dollars, but well everyone knows marks and spencers bottoms are top notch quality. i hope its worth it.

anw, are japanese girls generally smaller sized? i wanna buy clothing in japan leh. but scared i am too fat. am i too fat? :(
sad, y m i so fat?
come come i go migrate to america, i will be mad small size. :)
self delusional.

alright, i dun care. gotta eat noodles now and start pack pack. i still need shoes !

highlights of the day

2010-03-27T23:09:00.002+08:00

i finished beauty and the beast on my itouch ! wheeee ! i totally love this disney classic please. ever since i was born, i read/watch this story for so so so many times. i never get bored n tired bcos its so niceeeee !

and hor. seriously i got fat or i used too much force sitting on the sofa. so as usual, my butt "jumped" on the sofa. den i heard "crack" machiam someone fracture den bone crack that kinda sound. den my sofa entirely sunk la. :(
sianz. must buy new sofa liao. my mum keep on niam-ing me abt it. but ok la. the sofa also 10 years liao. must change. but need to change the entire set wan or nt ah?

and after watching jiu xiang lai zhe ni just nw. i had a really bad fall in my house. i slipped den my entire left side of my body fell on the marble floor. hitting my joint, left butt and head. HAHA ! my mum gt a big shock. she thought i fainted. cos i just couldn't get up so i lay on the floor. den after that i just keep on laughing. seriously, i dunno y. i will laugh when i fall down. not outside la i mean.
anw, very painful nia !.

k off to play game. today i m gnna sleep early to train myself for japan. DISNEY RAWKS ~~~~~~~

:D

me on tv

2010-03-26T23:15:00.001+08:00

did anyone of u saw me on tv?

i just watched just now. omfg. scary. okok ! its over now.

whoots. at least i dun have to worry liao.

i look so ugly lo. omfg. ccb.

transforming

2010-03-25T02:52:00.005+08:00

from a super big-sized ugly duckling to a not so chio fat swan.

ha ! some random blogging at 3am+.

throughout my poly days starting frm year one to year 3. i have received compliments saying that i have become prettier. (*shys* not i m pretty lah. PRETTIER SIMPLY MEANS FROM VERY UGLY TO LESS UGLY)

yeap. anw, i have to agree to the fact that i really look very ugly in the past. here are some old photos.

take a look at 1st photo. me n bff dilys. 14+ years old yeah. i dunno y in the hell my eyes r so small. no wonder gt pple see me n ask me did i go for eye plastic surgery. ahaha ! n omg ! i m so tanned. my grandma also say i got fairer yeah. of course la, all those whitenning products i have exchanged for alot of money. n not to forget abt pimple creams.

2nd photo- fat. need to say more?

3rd photo- pimple face to the max. i really hated hw people call me this in the past. really. i have alot of pimples on my freaking face. i find it damn er xin to wash my face cos its filled wif all these evil monsters. also, i very itchy hand i will go pinch it.

4th photo- redness not due to blusher. infact, i nvr put on any blusher. its a cause of excessive pimples.

5th photo- slight improvement for looks, lesser pimples/redness and bigger eyes (due to cosmetic lenses)

very tired of looking like that. i wanna transform.

i m not greedy. i dun need to look pretty. i just wanna be prettier. ( get the difference?)

anw, i got a better camera for my 16th bday. n better makeup n better skin.

bedok green prom. yeah, my eyes look crossed and alien-ish.
but cough cough. i was a prom nominee okay ! very proud of the fact even up till now.
erms. i nvr win la ! :P

Poly year one:

dilys 17th bday. still rather youth-ish. n i was with super long rebonded hair.

acting shu-nu-ish. haha !

still in simple makeup uh. anw, that is taken on my 17th bday. but apparently, u can see skin is majorly improved n much fairer due to amt of foundation.

Poly year 2:
that my few recent photos uh.

as it can be seen, throughout these few years, i have a better camera, smile, skin n looks.

but honestly. is that what i wanna achieve? caking wif powder, putting loads of colours in the eyes and brining out a diff personality.

hmm.. i dunno..

i only know last time i m ugly but i was relatively happy compared to now.
honestly, year one poly, i had a really hard time.

was start of new school, outcasted, being misjudged, lose friends, lose someone i tried to hold on.
life was really bleak n i had nobody i could talk and count too. i dun wanna bother my old friends cos dey gonna move on as well.

i couldn't. i was depressed. to me, looks weren't everyting alr. to people, i was being vain, bimbotic n even zilian ( honestly, i dun get this ) bcos, i seldom take picture of myself (as in alone) , most r wif friends. u dun see my putting my solo photo in my blog everytime dun u?

ok. this post must be the most zilian photos of myself.

yeah, back to year one poly life. i tried persuading myself not to believe anymore. i was so depressed that i wanted to commit sucide. obviously now not lah. DUH !
oh yeah, those who wanted to commit sucide, dey will not declare to the entire world, if dey have guts they wld do it alr. some people just want to garner attention if dey put smth like dying in the msn or smth.
thats disgusting.

anw, life is improving. not entirely very good. but i m glad i am much happier now.

makeup is not a mask. makeup may make u pretty, but never beautiful.

so.. wld u wanna b a plain jane wif good personality or someone hot but sucky character?

me... i dun mind being a plain jane. i am one myself..

PLAIN JEN.

japan, tokyo

2010-03-22T01:21:00.002+08:00

as my japan trip is nearing, i get alittle paranoid now. yeah. anticipating and alittle nervous. i better start preparing for all the stuffs alr. i m super mad scared.
like just now i went to try my stockings. i fucking forget how to wear in a proper way. seriously, it sld b eliminated. the material is like so thin ~ omg. :(

and shoes. wat shoes sld i bring. some of my trip mates actually said "closed-toe shoes" but i think ok leh. 10-18 degrees. still can open toe wat. but i dunno la. i will try to find boots soon.

and clothes ! omg. i initally wanted to bring stockings. but well, it is impractical and i m not confident of wearing dem. so, yeah not bringing. sad. :(
leggings, yiling said it is too thin. but honestly speaking, i not scared of cold wan. i scared of hot.

anw, jackets n blazers are definitely a must. cardigans yeah. also have.

wow. so many things to prepare. i better do a check list like really soon.

guess what m i anticipating most of the trip?

SHOPPING...........

erms.. yeah ! i am. but not the most !

i am actually more excited abt disneyland ! like seriously ! i m a disney fangirl ever since i was born. shopping to me is like an interest, smth i really like. but disney to me it is a dream, most lovely memory of my father, an obsession. mickey mouse used to be my "baby" when i was 4.

ok ! i shall research abt disney like really soooon ~ shall keep the details unelaborated. best for last. :)

REAL EXCITED ! ARE U PEOPLE EXCITED FOR ME AS WELL? :D

hi hello !

2010-03-19T01:05:00.005+08:00

hi hello ! u miss me? yes no?

kinda random. but those photos above are my cny pics. yeah. just steamboat dinner wif mum. yeap.
my makeup kinda shu nu ryte?
abit diff from wat i usually put. haha. yeah, i have high cheek bones.

anw, today, technically yesterday. went japan embassy to do visa . visa as in permit to go out of country, not credit card visa. haha ! really got pple so swa ku dunno wat is visa wan nia ! XP

haha. k. really very mafan la. the documents n everything.
but yeah, for real, this time i am really going to japan ! everything's confirmed alr. gurantee plus chop.

flight is on april 4th, 11.45pm. loads of things to prepare. cos i m going malaysia b4 japan as well. anw, i can forsee myself wif loads of shopping bags walking down the busy city district of tokyo. so awesome. gonna brush up my basic japanese soon. i got B+ for my jap cds the previous sem. not that impressive. but i m sure i can speak alittle bit.

anw, after doing visa, went to buy itouch protector. ok, it sucks. it is so freaking thick n affecting the visual of my itouch. okok. i m gonna buy a new one. my 3rd one. yes, i haven't even bought my itouch within a week n i going to get my 3rd protector for it. :(
but well, since i spend so much money on an itouch, i suppose i can afford the 20 more dollars for a good protector i really want.

anw, his name is xiao ping guo, which means little apple. :)

cheers everyone~ anw, y u all stop tagging me on my tagboard alr. kk. i know its cos i nvr reply. i m gonna do it now. please tag. at least i know someone alive is ready my blog.

busy days ahead for miieeeee.. wish me luckiieeeeee ! :) wishing for better days ahead.

love,
very da fang de jen ~

i touch itouch

2010-03-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

*breathes in* *breathes out*

yeah. i had an extra-marital affair and just bore a son.

to those who dunno, my dearest husband is sony ! and we have 3 beautiful daughters ! namely, my pink cybershot camera, pink vaio lappy and my pink handphone. they are mad gorgeous, three items i am proud to have. and i love sony very very very much please. i never thought of buying gadgets from other brand. bcos i have high brand loyalty.

secondly, i want my gadgets to be pink please. not hot pink (my goodness), but pale baby pink. yes the bimbotic kind like wat sony can give.

fyi, i love my "3 daughters very much" bcos they are so pretty but ok they are abit cui now. cos they quite old liao.

anw, as i mentioned, i have an extra-marital affair with apple and just bore a son ! omg ! yes, itouch is my new baby. got it from it fair. fucking big sized k? 32gb ! my mum's iphone is like only 8gb.
kk. okok. b4 u call me a hypocrite ( cos i blogged b4 i don't like apple and i love sony ), i am gonna explain myself naos. zzz.

around a year ago, my mum bought her iphone. so i was like eee, cos i have no good impression of it cos i watched xiaxue's iphone review, and most imporantly it is black n not able to drag n drop.
i always wanted a sony mp4. unfortunately, sony has been really dissapointing. bcos their pale pink mp4 are old. i don't mind it being old model, but i was always OOS and not able to drag n drop. new mp4s are all hot pink with alot of black and its quite ex, also not able to drag n drop. aggrrr... is it that difficult to create a perfect mp4 !? i mean my specifications are not that difficult to fufil wat. apparently, no improvements. in fact, it is deproving in my opinion.

so i always played with my mum's iphone. in fact, my mum bought it like when it was firstly launched in singapore. she has this corporate plan so it is rather reasonable. ok, slowly i think apple is really not as hatable i really think it is ! in fact, i developed quite a big liking for it.

so yeah ! i have got it today ! baby, u r stuck with me ! i am sorry that u have to end up with me if u r expecting a super hot chio babe that might use you to masturbate ! haha ! omg. i am so crude ! i m so mad happy la ! ok obviously, my itouch is a boyyy ! wat name sld i give him eh?
camera- miss pinkpig
handphone- miss pinkpill
lappy- miss pinkswan

obviously, i can't give him the same series of name as dem la cos he is like a boy n he is not pink ! moreover, he is not from sony range.

i was thinking to call him xiao ping guo ! but is it too cheena !?

ok. i noe i m damn bimbotic. but whatever la. i love him !
dun worry sony, you are still my loveeee !! :)

damage for today, 500dollars plus, 32gb itouch, sony earpiece, zhabalang brand mouse and sailor dress from newlook !

whoots ! imma happy girl =D

XIAO GUI ALIEN HUANG

2010-03-12T23:52:00.004+08:00

yoo hoo !! back from bugis with joyce ! haji -big big dissapointment. not worth the mention ! even shopper joyce also neh buy anything !
MOF japanese food very nice ! upload photo soon !
my results are fine ! shall not babble results now bcos i wanna blog abt xiao gui !!!!

OMG ! HE IS SO MAD CUTEEEEEEEE ! i went to see him today ! btw, just coincidental that i am in bugis today la, cos joyce wanted go haji. i didn't go dere specially to see him okayz.
anw, was dere alr so just go see lo.

was quite at the back la. the stage left side. filled with people like joining the fun, not for him like that. the host was super annoying, keep babbling abt xiao gui shoe size and some lame stuffs. den the host even ask middle stage to shout ( like as if xiao gui coming ) den he say test run only. =.=

anw, xiao gui arrived ! he said that he first time come singapore to xuan chuan and he is very happy to see us. he sung 4 songs. 玩具枪与玫瑰，搞砸了，地球上最浪漫的一首歌 and 不屑 ! my fave is last one, bu xie ! and at that song he waved at me omg ! yes yes ! me only ! no doubt ! HE WAVE TO JENNY CHIA KAH JEN ! omggggg !

ok, y m i so confident of this fact ! bcos as mentioned, my side dere not high at all ! only few people and me shout only ! so when xiao gui came to our side, everyone was busy taking photos of him ! whereas me, i just tiptoed like mad and waved to him like crazy ! and he wave back to me with a smile ! awwwwww.. it was really sweet and i can feel the electricity man so cute omg! dun worry xiao zhu ! i still love you the most ! it rawks to be tall for once and i feel like xiao mei mei again ! yes, i know i m too old for idols. also felt abit paiseh to shout nia.

talking abt taking photos ! i took few photos in my camera but its battery died on me upon taking few photos. den i use my handphone take. cos i m in a really lousy location and bad cam, i gave up upon taking some blurry pics. wld upload to my comp later though.

today is a great day ! alien huang hong sheng a.k.a xiaogui is mad cuteee !
ha ! i remembered i used to dislike him when i was 15 ? sec 3 days. cos he replaced Da S and Xiao S in hosting yu le bai fen bai and i think he very copy xiao zhu style la. like what he says and what he wears ! but now i like him ! cos he has his own style now and he is very cute ! :)

oh ! what he wore today not nice lo ! like weird la dressing ! he wore this duo colour singlet, infront forget wat colour, behind black. den infront short behind long. dun like it la. think he wear tshirt n jeans nicer !

oh yeah ! another thing worth mentioning. so at the end, the host asked xiao gui what is his shoe size den xiao gui say 9 ! host say his fans very stalker cos they know his shoe size. xiao gui asked fans how come dey know ! den dey say " YANG CHENG LIN SAY WAN" haha ! den i think xiao gui like fake fake nvr hear ! haha ! farnie sia !

ok. this is what i have encountered today ! i will never forget his sweet smile he gave today ! even i forget, i will read this entry !
i go read his blog liao !

kkbyebye.

love, happy girl jumping to xiao gui blog ! :)

update:
oh yah ! i forget to mention that i saw alot of people today ! i saw winnie and i shake her hand so indirectly shake xiao gui hand ! got this girl shook xiaogui hand and i heard that she tell her friend that she dun wanna wash hand liao. LMAO.

also saw eric, lyon and minghui ! haha ! eric damn farnie ! i was in action city and he acted like a sales assistant asking me if i need help. the funniest thing is that, i didn't see the face so i told him i dun need his help. den 2nd time he asked again " so do you want my help? " haha ! shocked ttm. lol !

and pris tweeted she saw me when i was looking at the directory! she was with aaron ! didn't see her though. if not will say hi ! =)

i am sad

2010-03-10T18:07:00.002+08:00

i am a pig. i just woke up at around 6pm. =.=
haven't got a decent meal yet. i guess i shall have dinner soon.

within few mins, i am sad alr.
yeah. i really wanted badly to hang out tgt. but since that movie is more impt that me. alright, enjoy the movie without me then. i don't mind.

but i feel sad that i am not placed against any importance upon the movie. no one actually said smth like "lets watch others", no one actually said that " i can join you people after the movie for dinner."
i dun wish to think so much.. but am i really someone that don't make any differences in your life? am i really that pathetic? are my feelings so worthless for you to disregard?

i guess the answer is obvious.

today i caught alice in wonderland.

2010-03-10T04:37:00.004+08:00

today i caught alice in wonderland. 3d leh. wah. make my head pain. the alice drop infront of my eyes man. i am amazed.

ann siang hill - major dissapointment with the merchandise range. but pretty amazed wif the vintage visual display, mad chio. jerry's fried button mushrooms rawks as well, same goes to seafood oglio olio. pricey i must say.

anw, fb status for the day: a beautiful heart matters more than a pretty face.
true? mei ting said i have both, but she say i no brain. =.=
wth. shall forgive her cos she say i am beautiful and pretty ! =D

and i have brain ok? just that it is not very big. =P

btw, social interview..

cannot see ah? haha ! den nvm ! XP

erms, i didn't post it on his wall la. paiseh leh. scared his fans beat me up also. XP

xoxo. rest 2mr. hope to blog more.

hai pai !!

2010-03-07T05:27:00.004+08:00

k, i know i am slow. but i finally finish watching hai pai ! wheeeeeeee !!

k la, dun say me slow lo. i was the first few peepz that started watching that lo.

reasons, i didn't catch it earlier cos i was super busy few months b4, test, projects, exams, had my heart broken, having some probs wif some people n blah ! alot la. oh well, let bygones be bygones. =)

anw, love hai pai ending ! but i wish dere are alot of small da lang kiddos lo. it wld be better ending lur.

dalang dalang dalang dalang dalang dalang ~ wheeeee !
BAOZHU JIEEE !

time checked: 5.31am ! omg! off to lala land yo ! =)

patrick hoodie

2010-03-05T04:26:00.007+08:00

so today, i collected my payment for surveys and went back home straight. was a cool journey. esp eating mr bean, green tea soya icecream. its guilt free. most importantly, it taste awesome.

ok cut the chase abt my life-less life today. i shall go to the main point of this entry.

i caught yu le bai fen bai today, in case u dunno. that is the show by xiao zhu, luo zhi xiang. usually i dun watch cos i wld nap, go out and other reasons la.

so, i was watching just now.
xiao zhu was wearing this pink hoodie, in an awesome shade. i was thinking, wow ! what a nice hoodie and it looks like it is good material as well. BUT the flaw was this green floral at the bottom of the hoodie. it looks really unmatchy with the pink. but it doesn't look that weird leh and i tink i seen it somewhere cos its really familiar.

den i saw the hood !! it is patrick ! patrick is spongebob best friend (yes, i am saying it cos got pple dunno who is patrick lo )

after i saw the hood, it doesn't look weird anymore. in fact, it is one of the cutest hoodie i ever seen ! :) and its worn by xiao zhu leh ! best of this hoodie, u can fully zip. and when i say fully zip, it means u can zip it till your head area. haha ! u can be a true blue patrick man.

i saw one online before. almost bought it. but that hoodie was diff. it was patrick face on the hoodie. it was nothing like this wan i saw today.

and i tell u people. i was mad stupid can. i actually went to fb and shoutout asking people where to buy this hoodie on my status. super lame ryte? =.= no wonder, nobody bothered abt me. den i went to google " patrick hoodie". i was brought to many patrick hoodie. but nothing was like the one i saw.

den i realised. how come i have such a stupid brain. i didn't even check the stage website can ! which is his store la. so i tried my luck. and viola ! here is the patrick hoodie i want. AND IT IS A GOD DAMN 168 sgd lah ! wtf. 68SGD i might consider. but it is 168 SGD leh.

pay collected today only 176 dollars. so i spent it on this hoodie... i will be like... T.T

omg. i really dun want to make it an impulse buy. but this is so... cute... i try to find an inspired one online den. with a much lower price. i can't bring myself to buy this. :(

just imagine if i had this hoodie...

scenario one:

Friend: hey jen ! u getting fatter ah?

Me: omg ! did u just realised the secret that i am not jen. *pulls out hoodie from bag* I AM PATRICK !

scenario two:

Friend: hey jen ! u waiting for friend?

Me: i am not jen. i am patrick. (i am wearing the patrick hoodie btw)

Friend: erms okay. (siao)

Me: I am waiting for spongebob. ( quickly pulls out hoodie, inside got spongebob tee)

Friend: =.=

fyi, i have 3 spongebob tees btw. ok n i dun really wear it. :(

so if i have the hoodie... would i even wear it out? but i really like it ! :(

please give me 168 SGD for the hoodie please. :(

why so hot ah?

2010-03-04T02:26:00.003+08:00

weather damn kaopei ah. hot sial.

been really out for these few days. heaty.
i really want a day to chill out n relax and not worrying anything..
perhaps, reading a book with soothing music, blasting aircon. best would be makeupless, let my pores breathe. i m wearing makeup everyday. esp, i am with concealer, bb cream, foundation and loose powder. yeah. u can imagine how dark i am without all these uh.

2mr, be collecting mystery shopper pay and hopefully i can have my dream break n clear wardrobe after that.

yeah, pregnant really make one matured uh? but also dunno if its a fortunate or sorrowful thing u know? like that thing growing in your tummy, making u fat. but blissful at the same time. hais. wonder how would it be if its gone...

xoxo.

happy birthday justin bieber.

2010-03-01T23:29:00.003+08:00

its 1st of march. whooo. first day of the month !
not a great start though. bcos i realised surveys not done ! *coughs coughs*

gotta cheat obviously. >.<

anw, thanks once again for YL to pei me finish those irritating surveys in town.

and yesh ! happy 16th birthday justin bieber. not gonna put his pic here la. since i just put 3 of his vids up few days ago, just kindly scroll down to enjoy ! :D

also, i believe most of u read my twitter and fb status liao.
i got approached by a tv crew today in wisma.

its some paegent held by watsons, like choosing the best girl with the nicest eye. so yiling n i agreed to hold the flower and choose and they promise us that we wun be on tv. den michelle chong came to me and i was literally dragged to did a short interview on which girl sld to choose. despite me emphasizing and begging not to go on tv, dey still wanted me. anw, i just luan luan answer her. ok, i will tell u pple when the show is showing (provided i remember and my part isn't cut off) haha ! if not lao kui sia ! lol ! my make was mad light btw. i barely had any eyeshadow on.

please, make me look less fat on tv please !

ok, reason y i dun wanna go on tv. its bcos i am very self conscious of my looks. yes, low self esteem u may say. :(

and i realised artises are so difficult la. one sentence of line, dey have to do it over and over again. i dun even find any thing wrong wif the sentence la. dey have to do until perfection. =.=

k. mad tired. shall upload photos soon. :)

hols are such awesome time to meet friends.
last friday afternoon, meiting. last friday evening, clubbing with tiff, xx and serene and serene's fren tian tian (pics at fb).
today with yiling.
2mr with afina.
wed with joyce.
thurs class bbq (not sure going or not though)
this fri no plans yet.

but wheeee ! who wanna chop me? (:

hehe !

xoxo.

tiong bahru with meii b4 clubbing and wolfman.

2010-02-28T18:36:00.011+08:00

25/02/2010

had insomnia that day. it was actually a day after exams. and i was super super hype up i dunno why.
online until 7 plus am. wanted to sleep early as i was gonna club at night actually.

anyway, around 6 plus am. mei ting pm me ! she was like " omg ! are you online? you haven't sleep or just woke up !? " haha ! she think i bian tai cos 6 plus haven sleep. >.<

ate student meal and she ordered oreo freeze cos she ate alr. sobzxzx. neh wait for me. T.T

that's her btw.

that's miieeeeee !! :)
my eyelashes rawks ok. i look like a little kiddo.
if u r wondering why the difference in the contrast of first two pics and last two pics of myself. this is becos first 2 pics are from my cam and the other 2 from iphone. seriously, i dunno y hers look nicer. think becos the lighting is rather dark inside the restaurant?

anyway, toilet pics (as usual) :

was trying to take a pic of my outfit and she kpo.
if u r curious, the dress is from 1st Avenue (which is from tiff's department), heart stockings from topshop ( mad chio btw and worn by the ah gua in topshop :P ) and cotton on silver flats ( which is worn by me till mad loose alr )

close up of our bottoms.
btw, the staffs in pepperplus compliment on my stockings very nice leh !! :D
talking abt pepperplus, me and meii bought a shawl and tshirt. we bought the same shawl and tshirt leh, i realised. just in different colours. i had my shawl and tshirt in pink. and her shawl in brown and her tshirt in pink ! but its the exact same design. kinda gay uh? :P

HEHE ! BGF ! :)

hehe. my makeup if u r curious.
loreal concealer, lioele bb cream and powder, light blue eyeshadow loreal, black eyeshadow etude house, and dark blue eyeshadow from 120colour palette, mousse blusher maybelline and lips from lip ice. blue contact lenses freshlook ( very faded blue, not obvious )
yes yes, very intensive i know. :D

anyway caught wolfman and my point of view:

i would give it a rating of 3 stars out of 5. actually perhaps below la. anyway, spoilers alert !*

this movie pretty much sucked. no gore, no scary part. it shldn't be even nc16. the most PG. the previous nc16 movie i watch was daybreakers. its like 3 times nicer than this?

oh well, the storyline kinda suck too. the male lead aka wolfman is so not handsome at all. so please dun expect too much, if u wanna see a handsome face. zhabor wise, quite chio. i love her victorian style outfit ! mad chio.
however, the love part, there are no much details to it as well. its really nothing much. mei ting expected the girl's love would change the wolfman to a less beastly person. but thats not the case ! the beast is still a beast and the girl still killed him in the end upon tearing like mad.

the best part would probably be the torturing of the malelead in the asylum bcos no one believes him, they think that he is lying abt himself being a wolfman during full moon. and this mad dumb wolfman doesn't want to kill himself bcos he wants to kill his crazy father (who is also a wolfman)

alright, ok. i change my mind. the best part is actually the fight of the crazy father and the male lead. two wolfman with ultra masculine bods and biceps fighting here and dere with fire and head being torn off. super eewww and a turnoff. but nothing gorey seriously. i can watch it alone.

i feel the most gorey part would be the 1st wolfman (the crazy father) put his wolf finger into the victim's throat. and the victim was like screaming his guts off. his fingers also got cut off as well. his expression= classic and funny. really nothing much to be afraid off.

ok, done with this entry. will post the clubbing entry soon.

wow ! an intensive blogpost. long time nvr do le. and i love it. :)

be back soon,
xoxo

justin bieber

2010-02-27T18:01:00.006+08:00

still editing photos !! :(

show u people my current love/obsession !

JUSTIN BIEBER ! thanks yiling for intro-ing his vids to me !!

Romantic:

Playful party boy:

Bad boy:

So which style u all like the most? i like him being romantic ! omg.. ultra cuteeeeeeee..
i feel like a phedophile can? hahaha !!
isn't fan girl supposedly much younger than idols?
i can understand those aunties who chase jerry yan and other hot stars now. cos i totally feel the same way now. =.=

he looks mad young la. the mv girls look so chao lao beside him and dey are taller than him !! =O

hehe. just a short update. back to editing photos. ciaoz ~ :)

photos uploaded.

2010-02-27T04:30:00.002+08:00

wheeee !! photos uploaded to comp ! :D
efficient efficent me ! clap clap clap. i took some time photoshopping it just now.
but.... now alr 4.34am liao ! tired tired. so i shall do it later when i wake up?

agrrr... sometimes i wish i am not so self-conscious and show the original pic instead.
but really la, my chin bothers me alot. and some of the pics, i dun smile. have to photoshop my lips. :(

anw. i m now into justin bieber !! mad cuteeee la he.

i promised to blog more. so far, so good. :)

prolly upload some justin bieber videos later too. mad love mad love.

okthkxbye. :)

oh hi !

2010-02-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

i sld be blogging more !!

don't u tink i used to blog more during my year one poly days?
don't u tink i used to put more effort in my dressing during my year one poly days?

the reason i dun do it anymore. is becos of. PEOPLE.
i am afraid of their malicious opinions and condemning views abt me.
it really sucks. i don't want to please them, i don't want to do any PR. i just want to ignore them and do what they want. but i am so scared they talk bad behind me when i didn't do anything wrong. oh well, at least i think i didn't do anything wrong.

" what for bothering about what others say abt you? "

yes, its true. but still...
hais....

ok. enuff of blabbering.

show u people one pic !
sld i buy it? i think i can hav mad skinny cheeks with it man ! and it is so matchy with my 120 colour eyeshadow. love my eyeshadow very very very much. i tink i wld love this blusher too ! but sld i buy nt? i am suppose to be saving up !
:(

ok. i hereby telling u people that i would blog more again. i shall be hardworking and post loads of photos on my blog. i know i have bored many of you with wordy posts without piccas.

but seriously, i am charging my cam now. i will post those clubbing photos and outing photos soon. :) like perhaps in few hours time?

do anticipate.
stay tuned.
bye ! :D

120 lehhhhhh !!

2010-02-24T23:56:00.004+08:00

mr postman came and deliver a parcel to me yesterday while i was mugging for my rvm. ( haha ! i put part of my address down in case anyone of u wanna stalk me :P )

care to guess what is inside? :)

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clothes? nah ! i have got too many not worn yet.

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it is my 120 colour palette eyeshadows !

LOOKS MAD COOL OR WHAT !!??
looking at it just makes me mad excitinggggg !

2 sets of 120 colour palette with loads of loads of loads of bubble wrap ! i almost died unwrapping it.

so anyway, the parcel came with 2 sets of colour palette. one set is mine and the other one is shi min's one :)
i am so gonna take the palette and go her house to play with it !! :D

i wanna create many many looks ! any inspiration people? :)

this is how it looks like in real life. i used my phone to take picture, it doesn't do justice on how it is really pretty in real life !!

haha ! my eye is so naked without eyeshadows la. lol.
i haven open it cos i bu she de ! but shi min say its damn nice !

so i am gonna open it now !! mad god damn it awesomeeeeee !

wheeeeeeeeeeee.. excited.....

stay tuned to my bloggie. i am gonna blog abt the clothes i bought next !
since hols have started, i have more time to pursue what i want to pursue. :)
oh yeah ! any job lobangs, do contact me yo ! :D

hi.

2010-02-22T15:59:00.004+08:00

hi. just a short update yo.

actually i have nothing to blog.

haha.

anyway, just had my merchandise buying exam just now.

super belly buang. 20 marks case study leh. i only left like 5 mins to do?

agrrrrrr.. i hate myself for not doing the questions in the allocated timing. i totally hantam that question la.

time allcocation super fail. wtf. gonna say goodbye to my A already. :'(

ok. perhaps i sld take it to the bright side. i just obtain 2 percent and i can pass already.

haha. watever la. i just dun have the ah Q spirit lo.

and during exam, i keep keep coughing. still very sick lo or dunno who the fuck curse me. i ate like 16 panadols in 3 days. how i wish those are slimming pills man.

time check. 4.04pm. need alittle nap and shall touch on rvm. i haven study that subj yet leh. omfg. gg.

gtg alr. bye.

my real eyelashes are mad scarce. :'(

headache !!

2010-02-19T20:02:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg. headache. sore throat.
split liao. i need my panadol and dinner. :(

i ain't someone that whines when i am sick but when it affects my studies ! agrrr !!
i nvr study today sia !! just keep sleepping, napping.

agrrrrrr !! 2 more days to exams.

freaking scared !! :(

update:
38.2 degress celcius leh !! what the shit. how to study tell me? agrrrrrrrr..
initially i used the thermometer that tp gave it to us. that wan super lousy leh. nvr gimme temperature. just keep blinking red light. means its too high for it to measure izit? lousy siol. or is it i dunno how to read? paiseh lah. lao niang is too bimbo to use a thermometer.

its 9pm. i am still waiting for panadol and dinner. :(

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY

2010-02-18T20:21:00.008+08:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LIM AH MUI !

LOVE U HEN DUO HEN DUO !

MISS NI VERY MUCH AS WELL !

MEET UP SOON BESTIE GF !!

yay !! u are 19 !! wheeeee !! :D

much loves from mugging jen !! :D

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2010-02-16T22:48:00.001+08:00

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k la. happy valentines day.

2010-02-14T22:08:00.002+08:00

some people asked how come i only said happy new year but not happy valentines?

isn't that obvious? i am a chinese obviously new year is way impt?
2ndly, i am whopping swinging single. and i dun see anyting wrong wif it. y sld i give shit in an occasion that doesn't concern me?

k lah. since i sound so jealous right? i better wish la.
happy valentines day to every couple. 有情人终成眷属没情人赶快分手我的爱人快快到手 :P

_____________________________________________________________________

i will always remember that Vday incident. perhaps for my entire life.

it has been so many years alr since that day. yet.. the part and parcel part i cannot forget. the tears flown, the heart broken.

i wrote u a letter on 2008 Vday. a letter that i nvr sent it out to you. i tore it after i finished it.

i wrote u short blog entry on 2009 Vday. that time i have my own blog alr where i can reveal a little bit of my thoughts. even knowing that u wld nvr see it, i still wrote it. many entries are for u. u will never see it.
it doesn't matter. i wrote it bcos u wun see it.

the feeling is not so intense alr. i dun miss you, surprisingly.
bcos i know u wld b much better off without me in your life. which i would be really happy for you instead.

i prolly gonna see u again soon.. if i am not wrong..
i shall not avoid and face you courageously. perhaps we are not gonna be conversing with words. but i wld be very happy to just see u again. i certainly wish the best for you. :)

to the person i once love.
from the person who once love you,
Jen.

chinese new year

2010-02-13T22:51:00.004+08:00

just had my tuan yuan fan (reunion dinner) ! super bloated uhhh ~
hehe. me and mum only but i feel blessed ! :)

sorry grandma that this year i am not with u, celebrating new year. i sure miss u loads ! :(
i will sure go KL during school hols !! i love you !

this year no bobby under my legs during reunion dinner as well. :(
ji sad yi sia, you mei you. :(

anyway... my fave new year song...

by my fave band as well ! mi lu bing ! :) loveslovesloves.

新年就新生活吧不要停留在过去事了

i just wanna say and tell everyone dun brood abt all the sad things alr. it is a brand new year for all the chinese. and i am 20 years old in chinese lunar calender lehs ! OMG ! freaking old nia ! anyway, people may insult you, be in behind your back, infront of you or even straight to your face. if u spend time brooding over it, u may just forget how many people are actually beside u.
dun give shit to what others had to say. be happy. :) just like this song's lyrics. cherish your love ones and a new life is ahead of you. cheers yo ! :)

新年快乐恭喜发财红包拿来 :D

last day of year 2

2010-02-12T17:00:00.002+08:00

its gonna be a wordy and photo-less post again.

so i had my last lecture, tutorial and test yesterday. was kinda emo-ing abt it. year 2 past quite quickly i must say. and haha ! i just realised that my blogskin has been more than a year. i am still in "1r04". haha. its not even change.

time passes rather quickly. perhaps year 2 is quite fun filled and less problems. i remember how much i want to get out of this school when i first step in here. not that it has change now. just feel that the feeling for school is less intense now. really. i remembered i used to be really quiet during the start of year 2 as well. i felt like there is nobody that i could relate to and someone i can really share my feelings with. hence, the emo me. so i open up and interact with others.

honestly, i am quite settled down alr and now change class again. sigh. anyway, its really been a fun year to be 2r04. hope year 3 classmates are nice people as well ! :D

and yesterday, almost three quarters of 04 peepz took the cargo lift together leh. mad cool !

and coursework results are pretty satisfactory. i got A for my MB and a B+ for RVM. my RVM individual report got an A lehs ! the one i did on isetan. abit sad though cos i thought that wan is my coursework. =( anyway, i not hao lian ok. this has nothing to do with being smart. i studied hard and i put in effort in my school work, be it reports and projects.

my rp2 test did pretty good as well. 40/50. :D kai xin ! its abt luck la really.
nevertheless, i will continue to work hard for my exams hope i can improve even more !
bnu test yesterday abit buang though :( but the paper itself difficult la. i didn't really brood abt it after that though becos i was more of being relieved and happy that i finished my last test in year2. now must concentrate on CNY and exams !

wish me luck yo ! studies are my main focus now. i will not lose my main focus again ! i am very very very determined ! :D

love, jen.

it hurts. it sucks.

2010-02-09T21:18:00.004+08:00

interview role play today.
suddenly become panel interview (group interview)
T.T

my slot was initally at 11.25am. but i went to the classroom earlier to prep myself. before i even had the chance the prep myself, teacher say must go in liao. cos it is change to panel interview.
seriously she super attitude.

i asked: " how come it is a panel interview"
she replied: " cos i change my mind"

i screwed up the entire interview thing. i stutter i stopped i paused i screed. definitely i wun hire myself if i am the boss. i dun even had anything to say. i felt really really lousy. i can't help myself being affected by this. i feel i can do better being in an individual interview.

i dun have any high expectations for comm skills and i never had the glib of gab. but it does matter beocs i felt like a setback. i wanna get good grades. :(

i felt like crying so much, really i do. not only for screwing that interview up, but also being pointed out as someone that i am not. i am not sure if this is understandable. what i am trying to mean is that i am being pin pointed as " this" but i am not like that.
it doesn't make any sense uh?
but really, i can't be bothered to explain myself back then. i am too hurt to do so.

yeah, it hurts and it sucks.

i grittered my teeth and clench my fingers together to stop all the tears from flowing. i felt really like a small kid who is out of place.

i can't even voice out my own opinions, lousy uh?

waited for mei for 2 hours for lunch.
i am glad i did agree to meet her up. it was so much better when i told her how i felt.
though, i really hate waiting. >.<

we had this convo.

she: don't trust people easily and dun treat them so nice. prevent them from hurting you.
me: what is wrong with me opening my heart? isn't it very tiring to beware all the people around you?
she: never ask you to close your heart lah. just be careful. you can open half of your heart and close half of your heart.
me: still will pain what and u can't really survive with half a heart.
she: den u put many many fake heart. so when pple pierce u, u wun feel the pain. put your real heart in someway secretive.

HAHA ! ABIT NO SENSE AH. but thanks leh. and i waited her another hour for her panel interview. =.= ONE FREAKING HOUR LEH ! like wth. mine only 15 mins? i help her spotted questions as well. glad she did well. :)

not really in the mood for photo... but well...
awesome OL ~ my shoe is major blinggg. haha. bad pixels. blame her iphone please. iphone totally sucks in taking photos. apple inventors must be thinking that people that use iphone, do not camwhore. =.=

went tamp after her panel interview. saw ice angel in artbox. abit shocking. cos always see her in her blog. felt alittle bit weird uh. i mean myself. she looks like what she is in piccas though and her bf as well.

and thanks mandy for her staff discount in artbox and i got afina her pencil case.

i also hi bye to serene in golden village and we headed home.

thanks foo mei ting so much for making my this day less miserable that what it shld be. :)
was damn hilarious ! :)

love is not for lovers.

2010-02-08T23:50:00.002+08:00

sorrrrrrrryyyyyyyy.. i keep getting obstructed by something. more photos on my fb.
just a picca for patronising. enjoy our sexy shoulders whoa !! MEII ! U SUPPOSE TO UNBUTTON YOUR TOP! WAT HAPPENED TO THAT?

omg. effing bee zee. be back soooon ~~~~~~~~

i feel so hurt for you

2010-02-05T02:34:00.003+08:00

i had so much so much so much to say. but now, i dunno how to go about it and what to say.
i believed i updated my fb status and twitter alr. i wanted to blog a super long post abt it. but it just don't feel right anymore.

i call you my best friend, but i feel really detached from you at that moment. there are so much things happening to you now and i only knew it today. u r on your verge of breakdown and i can't help you at all. listening to your cries just make me so sad and i cried too. :'(

i didn't even cried during all the miserable shit i have faced at the beginning of the year. but i cried really hard today, bcos i really felt saddened. i dun wanna see you suffer and unhappy. but be it any choice or decision made, you would still be miserable and heart would be super painful. :(

and you, mr jerk. is this how you should treat a girl? is that question that difficult to answer? y do you have to contradict someone till so badly? if that is what you want, just fucking say it. dun make her say what you want becos that is not what she wants. yes, you are my friend too. i dun wanna say bad things abt you. apparently, you changed alot. wat happened to that sweet and nice guy that once others and I know abt you? u got what u wanted, but is this your way of cherish? just answer that super easy question dude. she literally begged you and she dun deserve all these shit from you. even she is the most indecisive person in the world, she already told you her decision. nothing would change her mindset towards you. what about you? can't u just reciprocate? at least, answer her.

if you think i am not in a position to judge anyting, just freaking correct me. i know u read my blog at times. not sure if you would read this. if you really do read this, just think about the whole entire situation and be straight forward. this is not a post about scolding you. if i am, all the vulgarities would come out alr. i have known you for years as well. dun let that little respect for u be lost.

hope everything wld be fine soon ! :(

stop crying jen ! stop ! :(

mystery shopping !

2010-01-30T23:38:00.002+08:00

i went to do my mystery surveys today. ALONE. :(
cos i quarreled with mum so i just wanna get out and not see her.

anyway, i mall-jumped from suntec to marina sqr to city link to raffles city to plaza sing to cathay.
i dun even feel tired and bored even though i am alone. =.=
so loser la me ! i have got nothing to blog actually.

oh ! i can blog abt coincidence !

i was in citylink mall walking to raffles city. den saw alvin, bgss junior. he shouted my name ! super loud ! i major shocked ! i turned back and smiled to him.
i continued to walk, not more than 5 steps only leh ! i saw chris chris ! also, he also shouted. but not my name. he said "oie" ! i thought it is alvin lo ! cos got so coincidence meh? 5 steps only lehs !

after which i went to plaza sing. den walked to cathay. so when i was walking from cathay back to plaza sing. my dress flew lehs ! i swear it was higher that marilyn monroe ! the wind is super big. den go a couple behind saw. worse !! retail management's mandy was infront of me lehs ! omg. ok la. not exactly higher than marily monroe cos i taller than her den it flew till my boobs area dere only. but still. =.=. freaking paiseh and coincidental can? i better spread this first b4 it is spreaded to everyoneee.....

k lah. thats all. haven do rp2 journal ! die die die !

p.s. i can't imagine my patheticness if u saw me. =(

tear down house !

2010-01-26T01:22:00.002+08:00

MB report submission. Lunch den me and shi min sung K in Yiling house ! did alittle of camwhoring and its love.

tear down 1st avenue tday sia ! :'( at least, i got fans as memento. after that, wanted to go mind cafe cos movie cannot be decided. but mind cafe damn ex cos after happy hour ! so went century sqr for a movie. =.=

so with my laopo, 2 daughters and the maid caught the movie DAYBREAKERS !

okies ! some reviews and spoilers here. dun read it if you dun want to k? :)

my rating: 4 stars out of 5 stars. its consider super high hor. i usually dun give high ratings. it has a superb storyline but i am so not gonna watch it again !

reason being it is scary shit !! some parts are so unexpected ! like fire burning and vampires attacking ! especially the subsided vampires with wings man. they are like marther farking ugly can? super kiam pa ! feel like shinning them with UV rays !! :P

The male lead's name is Edward and he is a vampire that doesn't drink human blood cos he super kind. :) ok, seriously dun ask me why "Edward" is always a name for vampire. And strangely Edward as vampire doesn't drinks blood. weird uh?

kk ! anyway, back back to the storyline. one of the scary part is one of the subsided vampire (vampire that did not drink blood, bcomes mutated) attacks Edward and his bro, Frankie. Super scary cos he was beheaded with loads of actions. sheesh with gore seriously.

My fave part is the feeding frenzy at the last part. though it is scary, cos vampires are attacking each other. dey attack each other cos they are hungry for blood. haha ! its difficult to explain this part lahs ! watch it on theatres, if not read on wiki.

seriously reccomended for someone who likes smart storylines. even more highly recommended for peepz who likes smart storylines and gore !

OH ! did i mention that "Edward" the male lead is freaking HOT !!?
okie...not that kind of handsome young boys kinda handsome ! but mature kind of man !

WHOO WHOOO WHOO ! HOT SIA ! his wrinkles make him look major attractive. those who know me well wld noe i love matured guys !!

thats why i went with..... HAHA ! shall not expose myself further !! :)

REMEMBER TO CATCH IT ON THEATRES WHOA ! :D

P.S. the couple slippers look super cute :)

TGIF?

2010-01-22T21:03:00.001+08:00

thank god its friday?

PUI AH ! so many things due on friday !!

i now chiong-ing comm skills online peer tutoring notes and merchandise my part of the report !!

brb.....

beeeeeee zeeeee

2010-01-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

super bee zee !
don't even have time to tweet tweet. :(

proper post soon soon ! promise promise ! please dun leave me and my blog. :(

P.S. put yourself in someone's shoes. how wld u feel if you are the one that nobody cares abt your feelings. it doesn't mean someone doing "something" to you and you have to do it to someone else. you should do some reflections of yourself, you deserve all these don't you?

sigh.. i guess, treating one genuinely nice doesn't mean that person reciprocates. :(
yeah.. it sucks so much.

oh ! and joyce sms me today ! :)))))
hope to go out with her real soon !! :))))))

JEN.

I want to K you !!

2010-01-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

supposed to be on MC today...

skipped morning tutorial with quiz ....

but ....

i went singing with colouredfoo (yiling) , nicola (shimin) , CD (chris) and jude (junyi)

HEHEHE ! fun day fun day ! shall upload the photos soon !

Meantime, i have to finish comm skills RJ by today ! MB try to finish by today as well !!

2mr cashier aunty which means i can sit down ! whoots ! but i think i am in trouble as well ! :(
i forget how to do NETS transaction liao ! shall ask ling 2mr ! :)

and sitting down means i am gonna study my nutritions test ! whoots ! wish me luck yo ! :)

hope i dun die while writing my report !

ciaoz ~

its sucks so much to be sick

2010-01-19T23:53:00.006+08:00

it sucks so much to be sick, seriously.
rashes all over, scratching the whole entire night. super itchy.
went doc, 2 days mc.
doctor sibei kpkb. he just keep talking and talking without listening to wat i say.
cheebye, i just realised from my mum, he is also the indirect cause of my dad's death. kaozzz. an ugly truth.

k. i am fine with my rashes now. slept after the drowsy medicine the kpkb doc gave me. super drowsy. slept damn long.

anyway, 2days of mc. today and 2mr. not going school 2mr but going to sing K with my classmates. :P
i super bad i know ! but class is ending soon ! so its really time for a proper outing uh ! :) and i need to relieve my stress.

to do:
comm skills script
comm skills rj
bnu quiz ( suppose to be 2mr, but retest on fri and have study. T.T )
MB report

i am so stressed up !!! :'(

to side-track abit...

LIKE WHAT YOU SEE HERE?
i am sure :)
credits to modparade for these pics !

some of it are alr pending in the website which means u cannot order from the website alr.

so !! do visit 1st avenue this thursday. hate me, love me? u people must come ! can come and buy alot and make trouble for me cos i am cashier aunty of that day. :)

y 1st avenue? can come and support me as well and add some new clothes to your wardrobe since CNY is coming yo ! :) most importantly, u can try out all these online clothing. if it doesn't fit you den dun buy lo ! but i cannot promise u that u will get out off the shop alive ! kidding kidding, i really am. :)
and bought it and regret it? dun worry ! we will be happy to do an exchange for u ! :)

thursday thrusday thursday ! :)

i myself also got buy hor ! the star dress/top.

looking fat... i know ! lazy to photoshop uh ! so shut the fuck up ! haha ! u can see the box of my fake eyelashes dere ! :)

sidetracking to something more personal again...

its really been a hard time to face overwhelming stuffs. the anger, the regret, the sadness without crying. its even harder when no one understands. i have been trying hard to forget all of that, but the things just came along direct to my face. i do not know how can i react to all these. i am stoned.

but life still moves on no matter what.
the whole world can be pushing you, life gives you shit, everyone wants to see you fall
no matter what... stay strong...
my philisophy in life.

i just linked a blog from a facebook profile meii gave me. she is actually a friend of us, but i didn't add her on fb. AND HOR ! i want to say !

YOU SO FAT AND STILL CALL PEOPLE FAT and an insulting way somemore ! wahlau eh ! it doesn't mean that u know how to make yourself look better makes you pretty okay? all people deserve some love, yes and that includes you as well.
being fat is not a fucking crime. u sld noe that better than me. and stop hao-lian-ing your bf ! face also dun have in fb and blog and still keep blabbering abt this and that. i am not trying to say u r lying abt it. but seriously, if u r so proud, y not show his face to the entire world to emphasize on your hao-lian-ing la.

whatever. u can say i am jealous but i am not. it is just so fucked up to see fat people commenting abt other people that are obese.

k. need more rest. still dowsy.
i'll fuck through this week as well ! i would !

cheers !
JEN.

MJ shirt

2010-01-17T18:59:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS SHIRT AND I WANT TO BUY IT !

but....

i am hesitating...

not bcos of the price. its 15 dollars only.. but...

the freaking hand ! yes, i know. MJ dances putting his hands on his *ah-hem*

But i am a girl lehs ! i cannot be "buay pai seh" and wear this out man !

omg ! sld i buy this shirt? help help !!

RVM, you suck

2010-01-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

just finish a 3 page report, 1200 plus words.
tired. trying not to type so much.

got back RVM result. 35.5 over 50. lose 5 marks of giveaway. fml.

if not for the 5 marks, i would get an A ! And i would have straight A's for my mid semester test. and it actually mean a gpa of 4 to me for this semester test. damn it ! RVM, you suck.

k thats all. i still have comm skills to finish. bye.

a bo bo boring day

2010-01-13T18:20:00.002+08:00

woke up early to study, went school for nutritions tut.
quiz is cancelled ! whoots ! :)
so much for studying lahs ! could have used that time to finish assignements instead. zzz.

during tutorial, this guy sat beside me, copying my answers for proteins tutorial.
zzz. not that i mind ! but he didn't bring his notes lahs. hellooo.. thats was open book ! and wahlau he keep copying and copying my answers lehs ! ok, not that i nvr copy people also. XP

after that, i went tamp to take pic for my RVM journal. i dunno which retailer to choose ! omg lahs ! can help me choose pics? :(
and i bought 1 dress and 2 tops today. dress and top from isetan and the other top from BYSI. fuck man. sldn't have bring my credit card out seriously ! so dead.

tabao kim gary curry as well ! den i fell alsleep in the bus kiap-ing the milk tea between my legs. den when i woke up, i realised there is half more stop to my house bus stop. i faster press the bell, kan chiong like spider. den i drop my milk tea :( super wasted la ! somemore i spilled some in the bus lehs ! omg. hope it doesn't cause any trouble man cos the bus is like going orchard? :(

feel so guilty abt it ! :(
ok, no use crying over spilled milk. in my case, milk tea !

i want my kim gary milk tea lah ! :(
shall go buy 2mr ! super craving for it ! :(

k ! i am off for some sleep ! to be done tonight would be comm skills peer tutoring, comm skills agenda and RVM journal.

hope i dun die.

人心最恐怖

2010-01-12T23:35:00.002+08:00

可能对你来说，我的话是有目的，有心机。
这样，你的世界是可悲的。
对与错，你也分不清，我何必再多说什么。　
时间会证明一切，也会淡化伤口。　
我相信真理会证明我的清白。　

人，清者自清。
解释，根本不算什么。

Oh shit ! why am i even here ? blogging so cheeeeeeenna somemore.
wish me luck man ! i have a nutritions test 2mr ! to hell with lipids and proteins lahs ! gonna mug till 3am today. T.T

fuck it all ! but i will conquer the stupid test ! i would, i will, i shall !

tired

2010-01-12T01:39:00.002+08:00

one of the most scary thing in life is that a person loses himself/herself or being someone else instead of yourself.

i thought i lost that cheery side of me. i thought i couldn't laugh that loudly anymore. but i just did today.
dinner with some of my classmates, chatting some really lame stuffs and being loud in my laughter and voice. it seems that my troubles are far away, it seems that i have found "myself" back again.

tired day today upon setting up of the store. i even cut my thumb la. =(
but why is it that i feel so happy? :)

it feels really good. i suppose this marks my first happy day in 2010. :)

P.S. it was all an advice. if you dun hear it, that's it. i should have mind my own business and not said anything.

i am not arrogant

2010-01-10T23:11:00.002+08:00

ok. just realised i am seriously not someone that notice people. i only notice certain people though.
it is not that i am not friendly/arrogant or dun wanna say hi/hello to you. it is just that i dunno u. =.=

yesterday, open house. saw sandy in first avenue and she was with a friend.
sandy introduced me to her friend and she told me her friend is also in bedok green.
her friend was like : yeah, i know her !

ok, seriously i dunno her. i think she chio leh ! how come i nvr notice her last time in school ah?

den some days ago, i was waiting for my tabao noodles alone at bedok coffeeshop.
a grp of bedok green students wearing the uniform, den this guy was like waving to me. den i dunno he is waving to me. den he came forward and ask me y i nvr wave back to him. =.=

so i was like: haha ! you are?
he answered: i am your junior ! :)
me: erms.. icic. oh, my noodles are here now. i gtg !

super weird uh ! y can't he say his name? =.=

ok la. i dunno most juniors but last time being a counsellor, freakingly, alot of juniors know me.
anw, i asked winnie. and she said she knew me from bedok green as well. =.=

i am the " very long hair girl", "very tall girl" and the "very fierce counsellor".

haha ! amazing !

anw, good luck to those taking O levels results 2mr ! :D

sicks

2010-01-10T12:33:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i fall sick at this wrong time.
38.2 degrees celsius, sore throat, headache.

i mean yesterday uh. :P

i feel much better now as i slept for 12 hours+, i can't believe i still stay in parkway for shopping despite being so sick yesterday. just bought a bracelet though.

gotta finish cutting my butterflies, get some rest and eat my lunchie. hope i wld get well soon cos there are so many stuffs to be done. i can't fall at this period.

and can you have some sensitivity?

thats it. cutting my butterflies now. bye.

trading day

2010-01-07T22:46:00.003+08:00

hi ! i have not been blogging with photos...

so....

haha ! 2 only actually.
credits to tiffany's phone. really awesome contrast.

it is a relatively alright day today ! quite cheery abt today.
1st avenue operating hours extended lo ! until 6pm today leh ! tiring ttm and i had to go to "chatroom" and talk to freshies wannabes. =.=

anw, really glad tiffany, wanling and xiaoxuan come and visit me tday ! :)
xiaoxuan can really blend into first avenue !! see her shirt !! haha !

basically, the first photo is me and tiffany lahs. lol ! i photoshopped abit of myself cos i didn't apply much makeup today. but feel kinda alright cos my complexion looks alright.
seriously w/o tiffany in my poly life, i think i will die !
oh well, not the kind of u spoil your organs or bloody sick kind of death but seriously wat i mean is if there is no her, i tink i will always forget my homework/projects deadline and yes, i can't survive in poly alone.
so thanks tiffany ! :)

2nd photo is my poly besties :)
thank you wanling for buying something in the store again ! seriously she confirm buy something in the store in thursday wan lo ! she so awesome ! and you chen xiao xuan, i did keep my promise to blog ok ! u r awesome too ! but not so awesome cos u nvr buy from me ! haha ! dun care ahhhh.. next thursday hor !

around evening at 4, i went to the " chatroom", retail management booth. honestly, some students really make me wanna scold vulgarities la. kknbccb.
haha. and i got scolded by miss kim. kknbccb x2

shall not go in depth to it.

anw, i served 2 batches of bedok green sec peepz ! whoots ! happy ttm ! :)

first batch
i chiong to them and introduce them to retail management !
me: hi guys ! i am from retail management and i was from bedok green. :D
them: whooo ! ( like real high kinda whoo, not those patronising whoo can)
the other half of the batch: you guys know her?
them: of course ! she is our senior ! :D
me: :D Do consider retail management as your choice k?

real high leh ! super awesome ! :)

2nd batch (even more loved)
me: come come come ! bedok green right? i last time from bedok green ! :D
them: yoyoyo !
me: come come ! i tell u guys more abt retail management !

(mr dominique seah came along)
mr seah: wat school is this ah?
me: BEDOK GREEN ! ( i literally shouted cos i super high, abit paiseh cos mr seah nv teach me )
mr seah : really? u from bedok green ah? den u guys should follow her to retail management ! :D
me: (begins my blabbering abt retail management) blah blah blah !
hey guys ! do consider abt retail management ok? retail is really awesome ! and bedok green is awesome too ! whoooooots !
them: haha ! you are awesome too ! :D

ok la, they might fake fake abit. but then at least they seem sincere, nice and high la ! so shiok to see that ugly set of uniform again ! miss it miss it miss it !

I MISS BEDOK GREEN SECONDARY LIKE SERIOUSLY !! i miss it so much !! :(

oh ! did i mention in my blog b4 that i love my class ? 2r04' 09/10 :)

hehe ! thats all ! :) byes ! :)

blogging about today

2010-01-05T23:42:00.002+08:00

read some entertainment gossip below this post ! i just blogged that too !
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town again today ! whoa ! my 4th consecutive day in town alr ! i m totally like treating myself as a tourist.
day started with school, 1st day of school for only a MB lecture. oh ! and i scored 47/50 for my mid sem test. kai xin ! cos i practiced the retail maths like siao. not hao lian k ! i really studied hard for a good result. sometimes, i wish i am smart uh.

anw, after MB lecture, met up with my cousins and aunt/god ma in chinatown. and the train route from tamp to chinatown is damn fucking far and boring ( cos my hp low batt, cannot listen music )

aww.. i am a bad friend to tiffany today ! :(
i am sorry to make u miss your bus for me and pang seh you ! i am sorry to skip lecture not pei-ing you and pang seh you ! :(
2mr treat u ! sorry sorry ! oh casey johnson is dead omg ! read below post ! :(

anw, clementi next where the 3 of us took horng kor kor to his hostel. East Lodge ! sldn't it be called west lodge? =.=
anw, i have got straight bus ! 196 from bedok to clementi. haha ! first to last stop. kk ! but i determined to visit him next week. who really cares abt the 1 hour ++ bus ride. i dun, at least. :)
East Lodge is not amazingly good, but near to NUS which he wld be having lessons. haha ! btw, girl visitors can go in guys hostel or not ah? omg, i will feel damn paiseh la. not in horng kor kor's room but the whole hostel generally.

after settling down in the hostel, we headed to NUS. honestly, it is super big can? and the slopes seriously make me damn tired ! no wonder NUS students are like so skinny? fashion-wise, hmm.. not bad lo.. not much diff from poly students. i actually think poly students look better cos we are younger ! hehe ! :D

but the people in NUS ah.. got the " i very smart and i am hot/pretty/handsome" look ! serious? not kidding lo ! ok la, i did saw some geeks but i think they look like they are damn smart too. oh well, yeah. it is the most prestigious uni of singapore. so its obvious everyone are smart there ryte?
and hor ! the lorry man came in to NUS and ask me for directions to architecture school ( haha ! as if i noe? ) so i told him, i am not a student here.
the point is ... i have the " i very smart and i am very pretty kind of look" omg ! i think i sld belong dere ! if i can get in la ! :(
super desperate to get into a uni therefore i studying super hard now ! :(

NUS is good, and this is my 2nd time stepping into dere. first time i went there for modern dance performance i tink. i remember i keep mentioning " weiqi, weiqi " during that sec4 period. cos wei qi in that school ! :) i think NUS didn't really gave the like the "wow" factor of motivation leh despite the size. i will still try to aim that though. :)

so anw, yie jie jie and aunt wld take the flight home 2mr. so no more towning liao ! :( and oh ! i shall visit horng kor mayb nxt week? and prolly drag jac, zoe and ben along with me. :D

i didn't buy anything today can? ok la, one magazine for 2.80, paid by yie jie jie. yeah holy ! they actually gave a hair clay for free buying that magazine ! so wtf can. the hair clay is not zha ba lang brand leh ! it's loreal ! u girls interested in that magazine? it has fashion, makeup and other stuffs girls will like la. and the loreal hair clay is pretty big and it's for girls. uber awesome pls.

i shall be a nice girl and tell u all wat magazine and where to buy ! :)

it is Chic magazine for $2.80 and it is giving out a hair clay from loreal that prolly worth more than 5 dollars in watsons. holy awesome please ! go get one yourself in kinokuniya in takashimaya now ! :D

casey johnson is dead ! wtf.

2010-01-05T23:21:00.005+08:00

i want to blog abt today... but...
i just found out a damn shocking thing can !?

casey johnson is dead !! omfg, OMFG !

who is she, you may ask?
i believe most of you use baby johnson powder when you were young and you are using johnson & johnson shampoo or whatsoever product. yeah, she is the heiress to johnson johnson.

she is filthy rich ( duh ! ) and she is.......... a lesbian.
yeah, i nvr knew rich people can be lesbian lo ! oh well, at least not like admitting to the whole world. anyway, she was engaged to tila tequila btw.

who is tila tequila? you may ask again.
she is my most favouritest lesbian in the whole wide world la ! if you people really wanna know, go watch her variety shows. Shot with love and shot with love 2 with tila tequila. its not a typical bacherlorette finding love kind of show bcos she is a bisexual. its seriously damn farnie to see guys and girls trying to fight for her love.

obviously, she didn't find love lah ! if not how she get engaged to casey johnson?

casey gave tila a 17 karat diamond ring leh ! for engagement ! like siao lo ~ i mean some pple dun even earn enuff for an entire life to buy 1 karat diamond, but obviously casey can.

the more shocking thing is that yesterday, i was blabbering to tiffany how lucky is tila to be engaged to such a chio girl, and so rich. 2 of her finding love variety shows didn't work out but at least she found true love. haha ! oh ! i like tila tequila btw ! :)

so anyway, i was like googling for casey and tila yesterday, reading articles and watching their videos. and bam ! i read my twitter and i saw someone retweeted casey johnson is dead. i am like wtf. i was still reading on her yesterday la ! and yeah, she died yesterday btw. 4th Jan.

feels abit weird la. so perhaps she died when i was searching for her info? but anyway, i really pity tila becos they are like gonna get married alr ! after so many relationships with straight guys and lesbo, she like wanna settle down but this sort of thing has to happen..

just imagine your fiance dies ! FIANCE leh ! omg la.

k. some entertainment gossip to share and i am done. will blog another post above :)

:)

2010-01-05T01:29:00.003+08:00

great world city in the morning meeting them.
den we shop around, eat xiao long bao and watched a movie together.

lmao ! bought a G2000 top ! haha ! paid by my aunt aka god mum ! thanks thanks alot ! and your ang bao too ! super generous can. :)
i am not a G2000 person as well ! but i like the fake two piece top, nt very pricey cos got 30 percent off and additional 10 percent with my citibank credit card. and omg, bill is coming ! and i am so dead please.

at night, met up with jac,zoe and ben for dinner at ION orchard. it is really awesome when u know so many of us meet up together for a great dinner companying with laughter and joy. :) major loves with the cousins. and zoe is still dressed in her uniform and ben change so much can ! today's the first day of school for them. ben is like in sec 1 now lah ! he is so tall and voice break like wat alr sia ! haha ! it was so weird talking to a matured ben. and he actually talked abt evolution? like wtf !? is this wat a going-to-be-13-year-old boy should be talking abt? omg la, talk about ben 10 please. it is more acceptable. =.=

anyway, movie watched today : treasure hunter, 刺陵
some spoilers, dun read if u want to. the font would be in red.

Rating: 2.5 stars out of 5 stars.
honestly speaking, this show pretty much sucked. it was so bored till i fell alsleep in the middle of the movie. actions wise, pretty much alright but not that impressive enuff to "wow" me. ok, i give it a pass bcos the actors and actress are really good looking. lin zhi ling obviously ! helloooo.. 178 cm with 54kg or something? crazily good figure and not to forget her super sweet voice. some girls dun like though, cos it is super teh ! anw, she can't act for nuts i think! she sld just concentrate on her modeling instead. as wat horng kor kor says : " this is what will happen, when you put too much people that cannot act " freaking true can? other good looking peepz would be chen chu he and the cheena girl name dao dao in the show.

i dun like the part lin zhi ling becoming possessed ! hello ! it makes no sense please. den jay chou went to open the coffin and the ghost kena suck in by it. =.= lin zhi ling expression was damn farnie, and she super cannot fang kai la. i also dun like the part HUA YE told dem he went into the cave and say he went in b4, and he ate flesh to stay alive during the first time he came. he was really guilty abt it, so he decided to stay during the 2nd time even though there is an earthquake or something. dun u think it is damn lame ! so lame lah !

k la, i am off to sleep. i do have school 2mr pple !!!

byes ~ :)

busy bee and sour feet !

2010-01-04T01:08:00.003+08:00

busy bee and sour feet today ! technically yesterday as its way over 12am.

town again today with my cousies. 2 tops from mango and 1 cardigan from marks and spencer. great sale buys from mango ! :) but i am not a very marks and spencer person seriously ! i think it is expensive and not very wearable for teens. 40 dollars for my cardigan, its like long wings in the front and short at the back. haha. alittle pricey but i love it.

i think i shld show a haul post soon since i am like buying so many things !

dun think town-ing tomorrow again ! i just go and visit them in the hotel and prolly go for entertainment stuffs instead.

sld i skip school on tues to bring them to sentosa? *grins*
anw, night wld be heading to town with jac, zoe and ben. cousins gathering ! :)

ok. i do a haul/purchases/shopping buys post soon when i am more free ! i need more people to be interested so i have the motivation to do it !

i love shopping. it's a thing in my blood ! :)

sleeping now. 10am must reach waterfront hotel to meet them cos i want to see hotel. lmao.

nitez peepz ! :)

update update:
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO FARSHAD ! :D
bff a.k.a stupid boi, stop bullying me alr ok. u r fucking 19 years old ! haha ! k lah ! i treat u go bedok simpang eat k? (:
and continue your super romantic posts in your blog k? and stay true.
meet up soon ~ *grins*

short blog post

2010-01-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

hi. one of my new year resolution is whine less on my blog.

so, its gonna be really short blog post.

oh, i have no photos to post too btw.
but i had an awesome day today with my extended family. woke at 8.30, town at 10. last stop at marine parade. v. shiok. bought romper from hula and co. yays ! ate alot today too ! tired, but i love it ! tmr, same thing again. waking at 8.30. town at 10. and it is " am" i am talking abt. i kinda pity kah horng kor kor cos he has to shop with 2 tai tai and 2 da xiao jie. hehe ! but at least, i helped him for his purchase of his laptop. hope you love it and sorry to have ruin your " kai zhang"

joke of the day:
photobooth xiao jie: wat is your name?
KH: (asking me) what is my name?
me: u dunno your name den u ask me !? if u dunno, how i noe sia?

2nd joke of the day:
posb banker: (called my phone btw) hello, can i speak to MR chia kah.....
me: i am a MISS btw ! ( angry nia )
posb banker: oh sorry ! may i speak to miss chia kah horng?
me: (lol) errr... u wait ah... (haha)

shall see you pple soon ~ ciao ~

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i know i shall not be bothered by an old thing in a new year. i wanna pluck every single of my courage to ask you everything. i tried to salvage it, but you seem indifferent. i dun really care abt him, i care abt you. i m sorry if i have been a bad friend to you and you hated me, but i really dun like to be treated this way. i am sure u read my blog too. i sincerely apologise and wishes all the best for you.

love,
jen.

1st post of 2010

2010-01-01T13:25:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 TO ALL ! :)

guess what i am doing now?
i am doing housework and spring cleaning ! yes ! its loads of loads of housework and tidying up ! not kidding. i have done it for few days alr.

reason being my cousin, CHIA KAH HORNG is coming to stay in my house ! haha ! he is coming from aussie as an exchange student in NUS. mad cool lah ! hope i can accompany him for lessons in NUS. he is gonna stay for 1 month 5 days in singapore. 1 month is hostel and 5 days in my house. so he wld be staying here today ! :)

ok, a guy in the house ! i must remember not wrap my towel and walk to another room ! if not voila ! haha !

oh, my uncle and aunt and kah yie, another cousin, kah horng's sister are also here for a holiday. for a few days. gonna eat dinner with them later. whooo ! any suggestions where i sld be bringing them.

ok, i'll do my housework now, my house is still messy ! i am gonna bug my mum to bring me to royal cafe for mee siam for lunch ! she say she will after she finish washing the clothes.

CIAOZ AND HAPPY NEW YEAR . :)

last post of 2009

2009-12-31T22:44:00.007+08:00

hi guys ! its barely two hours from 2010. i bet many of you people are preparing for countdown or partying for a great time.
for myself, i chose to stayed at home and enjoy a scrumptious Indian meal ! just had butter chicken and fish head curry ~ it is really awesome.

anyway, this is my last post in 2009 and i shall make some reflections on what happened throughout this year.

Studies
Throughout year 2009, i have bypass 3 semesters, namely 1.2, 2.1, 2.2. gone through 3 cds of psychology, Japanese and now basics of nutrition. I made a terrible mistake during 1.2, which i did not study due to arrogance and being blur. honestly, it sucks ! really it does. i wish i could go back to that semester and seriously work hard that sem. i knew i can do better. during 2.1, i studied but project grades are really bad even though i worked hard.
But well, i did learn a lesson that hard work doesn't pay off. you have gotta work hard. but anyway, despite the bad project grades, i am still able to increase my gpa due to examinations. i am glad that i worked hard for it. For sem 2.2, everything is still ongoing so i am not sure. I dare not say i work hard for it, but definitely i did study. :) i hope projects this sem would be good as well as good results for my exam. I am very very determined to work hard this sem bcos next sem i taking calculus ! damn scared can ! but gambatte kudasai to myself, i know i can make it ! and i will ! :D

Friends
Throughout the transition to year2 in tpoly, i made many friends and met really cool people. Also, not to forget my outside friends like tricia, audrey, christabelle and DENNIS ! omg ! i still owe him an appointment and he bought me chewing gums in australia and i haven eat finish ! hehe ! :)
also, throughout the year, i have lose friends . sadly, i have seen through them and realises they are not even true at all. perhaps, i am not good enuff for them. but anyways, i wish them luck. its pointless to keep a fake friendship isn't it?

But, i do still have friends standing by me. :') and i mean true and best friends. i know i could always count on them la. sometimes, i would think i dun think i dun deserve them becos i am such a bitch at times. But you know, it seems that dey dun mind. oh well, even they mind ! but they are still standing beside me ! so i am happy to be cherished and i actually have someone to turn to when i have problems :)
i do hope i can make more friends during 2010.

Love
wahhh ! talk abt this also sian ttm alr sia ! haha ! but anyway, i am still gonna place reflections on this. this princess here haven met prince charming leh ! :(
sian ! how come i cannot find someone as attractive as you ah !? opps ! =x

Lol. anyway, throughout this year i met some guys. and haha ! i was asked for a relationship when i dun really noe the person. and he actually said : " we can understand each other better if we are in a relationship. " haha, ok, it is quite hilarious la. but i am like =.= at the moment.

anyway ! i met loads of lesbos on the year 2009 ! ( ok, i sld put this in friends section ) but aiya, nvm la ! anyway, seriously this year i know alot of lesbos sia ! both butches and lipstick lesbos. lmao ! some are pretty hot i must say :) the number of lesbos i know cannot be count by my 2 hands ! btw, i love hanging out with them bcos they are pretty fun. One of my close friend still ask me lo: " how come you know so many lesbos ah? so are you straight or not? " seriously lol leh. haha ! i dunno why also leh, mayb they like hanging out with me? haha ! and yes, i am STILL straight. yeap, still straight. :)

anyway, wish me find a right one during 2010 can ? best is feed me cute guys lah ! lol. :)
kidding kidding. i shall leave everything to fate :)

Death
During 2009, some people obviously died. hais, michael jackson is dead :( so sad uh ! king of pop has officially promoted to god of pop. and bobby's dead too. honestly, it is seriously a really a big blow to me. i cried for a few good days. i dun think i wld ever wanna touch a dog again. i am so scared to develop feelings for them and they leave me one day. :(
thus, i hope in 2010, no one i know, will die.

Looks
I think my looks improved ! due to makeup tutorials in youtube esp michelle phan's one. i am glad i found her tutorials in the year of 2009 ! i totally know how to make my eyes bigger now ! haha ! i also know how to push a cleavage alr ! lol ! i can't believe i am saying such unglam thing on my blog. but dun care la ! all girls wan bigger boobs and cleavage but just that they dun say it out ! anyway, through better bras ! i have nicer cleavage alr ! thanks for genius creations ! :)

i gained weight during 2009 ! omfg !! ahhh !! so fat alr still gain weight. therefore in 2010, i must exercise more often and eat less ! yeah ! god damn it ! and u know what people? i lost one size even though i got fatter leh ! i wonder if i grew taller or the clothes are getting bigger. haha ! i wanna shrink my height too ! take away 5cm and 10kg from me please !! and bigger boobs and better makeup and clothes !
also, i would want a more beautiful heart. bcos that is more than a pretty face. :)

alright i am done with my reflections and added some new year resolutions as well !

just wanna tell everyone of you reading this. sometimes, life just gives you shit and you fall down, everything you do feels fucked up. Yes, somebody might be behind pushing you down or perhaps they will laugh at you when you fall. but i am sure, there wld b a supportive hand from your loved ones to be holding you no matter what. if you had a bad year in 2009 like me, i am sure days would get better ! anticipate 2010 k ! dun give up ! start anew, everything's back to the start again.

i wish everyone luck in 2010 ! :)

and god damn it ! i should whine less during 2010 .. i think this is my longest post ever la ! anyway, 15 more mins to 12 MN ! excited excited !

have fun peepz ! :)

Love,
Jen

happy 18th birthday to you bgf !

2009-12-30T23:23:00.014+08:00

i had a really bad day today people !! :(
but i am not gonna blog abt wat happened today bcos its my BGF birthday ! wheeeeee !! :)

foo mui ting ! aren't you honoured i am the first and last one to wish you happy birthday ! you should be okayz? I totally msn-ed, sms-ed, facebook-ed and now i gonna blog a dedication to you ! :)

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY blur sotong ! i am sure u read my messages on various places alr, so i am not gonna say the same thing. instead, i am gonna flood this post with pictures ! there goes a quote, a picture meant a thousand words. so i am gonna bombard you with millions of words ! muahahaha !

random pics of you and us :

you know, i dun say this. but i love you people , which includes you lah, mei ting !
i know i could be dumb at times not realising friends are of a great importance, but seriously, when things goes fucked up, they are the only people by your side. it really feels good when you have a problem, and true friends are by your side listening to what you say.
no, you dun need alot of friends, just few true friends are really good enuff.

its not amazing if you can make a thousand friends standing for you, it is only amazing when you can have a friend standing for you after a thousand years.

i totally cherish you babes.

love,
jen. :)

thanks yi ling :)

2009-12-28T23:25:00.009+08:00

i can't believe i forgot abt this ! omgz !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DAI YANG TIAN ! may your career prosper ups and ups and more ups :)

gotta thank yi ling todayy ! and i told her i'll blog and i blog ! :) and its time for a proper post lo ! like seriously.

anyway, day started out going sengkang daiso to buy some stuffs for project ! and god damn it ! i was the earliest la to meet up in pasir ris. haha ! i feel so bad everytime i arrive late and charlotte has to wait for me. thats y i came early this time round ! whoots ! :) am proud of myself !

after sengkang at daiso, it is still pretty early. so i decided to head to vivo/town myself to do my mystery shopping surveys. seriously, i went alone yesterday lo ! to marina sqr and suntec myself. being a sucker testing the retailers. haha ! ok la. not that bad cos it is paid. :) I didn't do it during holidays becos everytime i go out with friends, i sure forget abt the surveys la. i mean why u wanna work when u r out with your friends right? haha. ok.

anw, yi ling suggested to pei me ! god damn awesome right?

oh yeah, this is the photo we took during 5th of november, 3 days b4 my bday. we went to haji lane and collected merchandise and we decided to share cab home together.
yeah, i look major shag cos that day was an uber long day in school, makeup all gone alr. thank goodness, i had my lashes on ! yeah, i broke that chio purple contact lenses as well. sad. :(

getting back on the topic,
we mrt-ed from seng kang to Vivo !

me and her exchanged bracelets. the gem one is mine actually and the pearls are hers ! i love both bracelets !

After siao siao abit in Vivo, we decided to head to orchard cos there aren't much of retailers i could test on.

So vivo > 313 somerset

in 313 somerset, i went to diva and bought a diamante braclet for 9 dollars, usual price 38 dollars. aunty ttm lah i noe. but my bracelet is mad chio ! :) show u pple if got chance !

after that, we got bored in 313 and we headed to wisma. wisma walk walk abit den head to ION for soup spoon ~ whoots !
Health conscious ftw ! she also very health conscious man !
i need healthy food lah !

poke poke !

food ! hers the minestrone and mine is tokyo chicken stew ! seriously mine alot of meat sia ! ! i rather having more soup lo ! more healthy !!

my sandwich ! seriously big and alot of meat ! confirm full ! and i feel like eating in subway sia !

her salad ! and she damn health conscious ! she didn't even touch the cheese for her soup and she took only abit of the sauce ! omgz.

me and her btw ! sorry ! handphone cam pixels not so good ! :P

yiling :)

i cannot finish my food cos alot ! i tabao back home eat ! dun wanna waste :)

after that we head to etude house to take freebie ! omgz ! she is as aunty as me lo ! when we walked past etude house, she told me " aye go in go in, got free thing" HAHA ! anyway, we got a mask as well as a sample cream ! major awesome !

in etude house, i open a mascara ! and omg omg ! super hilarious the brush ! damn funny ! yi ling ask me take picture ! haha !

see the cui brush ! so farnie lah ! actually it is not that farnie lah ! but dunno y me and yi ling open it den we laugh like mad for dunno wat reason ! seriously, the mascara is damn funny la ! haha !

she is the etude paper bag to cover her face ! haha ! and i taking pic thru the mirror ! haha can see abit of my boobs behind as well ! lol !

after that, we went far east and took 513 bus back. and god !! it doesn't stop in bedok south ! agrrrr ! y bedok north ! siao siao siao ! in the end, i alighted at tpoly. super lame shit. aiya, but watever la. haha ! still reach home in the end.

k lah. i really can't imagine i am going to school 2mr sia ! i am still dilly dallying ! and should i print lecture notes? and wat sld i wear for school 2mr ! so sianz to think of it la ! and also hor, its damn difficult to plan an outing for BGF leh. agrrr ! i am not pissed but just so hais, everyone seems to be busy with stuffs, including myself. i really wish we cld meet up soon !

ok la. thats all. i still have school 2mr. lame shit.

k bye. xoxo !

MERRY X'MAS !

2009-12-25T20:38:00.003+08:00

i am back ! miss me? (:

apparently, u all neh miss me lehs ! cos you all neh tag my bloggie ! :(

anyways, MERRY X'MAS ! :D

i sent smses to most of you alr ! got receive? gan dong ryte? haha ! no need to be cos i got unlimited smses ! :)

hehe kidding ! :)

Bunny are cute and sexay ? no way ! reindeers are now the sex yo ! bunny are so passe !! reindeers are damn cuteeeeeee ~

i'll be back blogging soon ! meanwhile, enjoy-ing the last few days left of holidays ! :)

xoxo jen

last christmas, i gave you my heart, but the very next day, you gave it away.
this year, to save me from tears, i'll give to someone special. ( my fave x'mas carol ever )

dear santa,
once again u bluff ! you never appeared lo ! i dun tink i wanna trust your existence again ! this is prolly the last year that i wld write a letter to you ! hmph !

MERRY CHRISTMAS

some webcam piccas to make you lol !

2009-12-21T01:21:00.005+08:00

I am bored.

webcam pics :

done with packing clothes in the luggage.

cosmetics tmr. :)

i will be back. bye ! read my twitter !! :)

short update

2009-12-20T01:46:00.004+08:00

without makeup, without photoshop.
its alright, cos dere is nothing to hide anyway. i shall not be ashamed with my true self.

anyway, just a short update of myself.
i just booked airplane tickets and i would be heading KL on monday, coming back on christmas (friday), 3pm.

it is rather impromptu trip, i must say. i nvr expect myself to go on a getaway during this holiday bcos i am suppose to be in tokyo. anyway, i am glad i am not in tokyo. During this period, tokyo just happened some earthquake. so i sld be thankful that i am not dere.

i am sorry for those people i promised to go out with. :(
sorry that i pang-seh you all at this moment !
okok, i try to buy someting for you all kayz? anything except porn pirated dvds or bubble gums ! :)

its not a bad time for a trip now, bcos alot of things are overwhelming me and i need a break.
moreover, my credit card just arrived in my mailbox ! which is awesome !!!!!!!!!

this means shopping !!!! :D
wahlau, my mother just told me i can put any name on my credit card lo ! =.=
she never tell me earlier. zzz ! if not i would put " my lao niang" as name. Xp
lol ! just kidding, i would put " jen chia" :)

my balloon dress from aussie spree also arrived in my mailbox just now. kaixin. :)

obviously photoshopped.
anw, i love the quality and it is very true to the picture from the website. but what i dun like is that it's loose which explains why i have to kiap it with a belt. also, it is very short and low cut. i obviously can't wear it as a dress. agrrrr. how i wish i am shorter by 5cm ! :(

ok. thats all.

wishing everyone an advanced merry christmas. and must miss me okayz? (:

Love,
Jen.

justice, wtf?

2009-12-19T11:14:00.002+08:00

oh wow ! i didn't know i had supporters lehs. omfg. are you gonna create a fan club for me !!?? OMFG !! TELL ME LEHS ! i now go photoshop all my photos and email to you.
btw, your email: 123@hotmail.com right? i suppose that is not your real email right? tell me your real email lehs !! :D

opps sorry to others who still blur blur about what happened, read my humble tagboard. thanks.

oh hi, mr/miss justice ! are you honoured that i actually replied you? i am sure you are, cos this is my first and last time replying a tag on my blog lehs. even my best-est friends and precious gfs i also nvr do that. u gotta be realiee honoured.

firstly, i swear upon my life, very seriously. that i am not "justice" that i tag my blog and my friend's blog. I SWEAR UPON MY LIFE !! i am not so freaking lame okayz? zzz !
2ndly, i also swear i do not know who is the person !! i swear i didn't ask anyone to tag ok.

alright, i am guessing who are you.
are you my friend? my stalker? or her angry ex?

hmm.. btw, i shall guess your gender first. from your typing, initially, i presume you are a girl. but who knows? guys can make up this kind of typing as well. but if you are a man ! do it the manly way lah. dun hide behind your computer screen and tag my blog and her blog. act as though support me like that, when u actually dunno anyting !?

i suppose you are my stalker as well. bcos, through my blog manager webbie, namely nuffnang. i hav like loads of views, and yet only few unique views. *cough cough*
what i can say is .... wooowwwwww !! major mad lehs ! i dun even read my blog for 2 times. and yet you can read 20+++ times man ! omfg. kudos to you, mr/miss justice. and the amazing thingy is, i haven even been blogging for more than 20 months. even u read one post one time, also nvr make up 20 lo. so i am really really really amazed man ! so how? u like the way i blog? tell me lehs, which are your fave posts?

ok, seriously no thanks to what u tagged on my blog and her blog. i suppose you are not my friend, bcos i seriously cannot think of a single friend that is so erms.. how do i say it ... caring until the extent that will say "support me" , and call people a "bitch"
wahs... u hate her so much hor? y lehs? buay song abt wat? dump u izit? den let me give a caring suggestion, dun be so childish alr.

honestly, what do u know abt me? even u read my whole entire blog, i am also very sure u do not know abt me. as i have mentioned, i am not simple to understand. wow ! i can't believe u just called my friend a bitch? u know what, dun mess up with my friend. who are you to judge man? just becos your name is justice? wtf. -.-
aye, i dun wan the whole school to know lehs. dun siao lah. i also not chio, let the entire school know me for wat? i still want to finish my poly days peacefully wan lehs. i only left 1 and a half year only hor ! dun make me dread school lehs, i kinda love school !! :)

and you said she two-timer, three-timer and etc. she got do that meh? i didn't know abt it man ! obviously, i am sure she is pretty enuff to get many people to like her but definitely she doesn't have that much of heart to share. ok girl (if u are a girl), dun jealous alr okies ! mayb some plastic surgery will work for you ! do take me along if u are going for any ok. i wanna do liposuction and nose surgery :)
i am sure at that moment, you and me can two time, three time and etc.

wow ! and u actually hate bitches and you support me? wahs, i am honoured lehs. so u trying to say i am not a bitch? haha ! what makes you think i m not a bitch? who knows i fuck 10 guys at one time just that i dun say it out? LOLOL ! not literally i fucked 10 guys lah. but u know la. i myself is a bitch. just bcos i dun blog bitchyly like other people, does not mean i am not a bitch. hope you get what i mean, mr/miss justice.

lastly, thanks for coming to my humble blog. of course, you are still welcomed here. but please watch what u comment here ok. get your facts right b4 commenting. if not you merely sound like a immature, childish person.

alright, peepz reading this ! i am going a short getaway to KL next week :) anyting u want? do ask me. i gotta take a break out from alot of things. hopefully, i can buy my grandma a new dog. :)

thanks for reading till here.

Cheers,
Jen.

rants and whines

2009-12-18T20:31:00.002+08:00

this would be a long ranting and whining post. simply just get off from here if you would not like to read the whole chunk of texts.

FIRSTLY, let me clear some misconceptions.
I do not like/fall in love with people easily. dun believe me? read this entry i wrote during august 2009 (clickable)

brrrrr.. yes, i have alot of things in mind to say but i dunno how to put it in words. ok, pardon the structure of this entry.

i trusted you alot, even though i dunno you long, i told you everything, well almost. Ok, perhaps i am at fault as well, i never knew you would fall in love so easily. but u know what? i am not gonna intrude, cos its your life.
but i am not a freaking saint ! i can't forget my stupidity. i am amazed with my stupidity as well. i forgive people, but i dun forget easily. it is impossible for you to expect me to treat you the same way i used to treat you ( in terms of being good friends ). Well, i am not that petty, bcos i still treat you as friend.
I am not a hypocrite when i say i still treat you as a friend, but apparently i need sometime to clear my mind bcos of what you did. Thanks for the apologies, at least i knew you care.
But apparently, its impossible for me to be " cool headed" and give you advice.

As i said, at the beginning of my post, i do not fall in love easily ! therefore, there is no one in particular i like/love at the moment, i am serious about this. I merely say " guys are cute"
there are many many many cute guys in this world. if i have to fall in love with everyone so easily, wouldn't i be very busy? of course, not to mention " desperate" as well.

there is no obligation to me, i repeat no obligation.

what i mean is that you dun have to be in a relationship or even worse, marry me. oh jesus !

hahaha ! actually like that also bu cuo hor ! if zha bor say a ta bor cute, den he has to marry her !

LOLOLOL ! den DAI YANG TIAN, PLEASE MARRY ME OK ! YOU LOOK UBER CUTEEEE ! we can move to china and grow vegetables and live happily ever after ! :)
okok, not to forget LUO ZHI XIANG as well lo ! please marry me ok, i think you are very very very cute !
aye wait people, bigamy is an offence right? :(
den i shall move to arabia den, can marry 4 people right? or this is just simply apply to guys?
:(

K NVM, I buy my own island den ! dear santa, i have been a good girl, so please send few percent of bill gates' riches to me ok? :) i am not greedy, gimme few hundred million for my island can already. :) den i shall be a female emperor dere and having loads of concubines and manservant serving me ! all handsome macho men ! HAHAHAHA ! ok, i also want butches and lipstick lesbos tooooo ! :) i am sure it would be hella fun !

omggg, getting out off the topic seriously. lol ! back back back. as much i dun fall in love easily, is equivalent to me hating two-timers. can try two-timing me, bcos it would be saying goodbye to your crotch. :) alright, i am kidding, bcos simply taking off your " lao-da" is definitely not good enuff becos you still have you ass waiting to be fucked. who knows you might enjoy bottom sex.
aiya, i just make life miserable enuff la, dun wanna elaborate liaoz.

anyway, in summary, i dun like anyone and you are free to be anyone you like. i am in no position to be jealous too. :) so yeah, no hard feelings but i can't be a hypocrite and act as though nothing has happened. and since you wanna lead your life this way, i shall not intrude.
because i am not you, pretty and tall. its good for you because things end the way you wanted it to be. for me, i feel that friends are more important. there is a saying right, GIRLS FOREVER, BOY WHATEVER.
haha ! totally laughed my ass off.

alright, i am less irritated now. i wish everyone luck.

miss chia, you have to judge people more carefully and not be naive anymore. and shut your fucking mouth when it is required. :) not everyone are nice :)

byebye earthlings. Love the nice people around listening to whatever crap i said. :) i am a simple person, but i am definitely not simple to understand. :)

失去了全世界，还有你在我身边。

yours jenuinely.

super irritated

2009-12-17T22:43:00.002+08:00

agrrrrrrrrrr... Jen is super irritated...... ahhhhhhhhh...... agrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
so freaking irritated lahs !!!
brrrrrrrrrrrrr.........

kk ! anw, super busy and hectic week ! shall upload photos if i am able to get ! i kip forgeting abt my digi cam !!

gosh, someone kill that my irritated feeling pls !! so irritating !! ahhhh !! idiot lehs !
shall watch hai pai tian xin to xiao qi ! omgomgomg !

as much as i am having fun, at night i would still be missing bobby and tearing in the bed. :(

but u know what, life still goes on. its time for me to move on, time to change fb pic n msn pic. i would still miss him though. :(

okies. bye. i am still super irritated !!
btw, who stalked me today !!? total visits 36 and unique visits 16. siao ! read my blog 20 times for wat? i dun even read more than twice for my own blog. zzz. . =.=

goodbye bobby :(

2009-12-14T01:53:00.003+08:00

RIP, with memories and love.

grandma called and she said bobby's dead. :'(
my eyes are super painful upon the excessive rubbing and crying.
how can i be not sad? its the only dog i have know for more than a decade ! its my grandma's dog, it is also like my dog.
you would cry for a friend you know barely few years, wat more than me ! i knew him for 10years + . :(
he is dead for 3 weeks already, and just got cremated. :(
i dunno if there is a paradise, but if there is, i hope you'll go there. i will miss you very very very much !

i hate the fact i cannot touch your forehead any more, i hate it that you cannot play with me anymore, i hate it that you cannot dance with my mum anymore, i hate it that i cannot hug you anymore.
i hate the fact that you are dead. :(

when you were a baby pup, i was a small child.
when you were a puppy. i was a young child.
when you were a teen pup, i am still a young child.
when you were an full fledged adult dog, i became a young teen.
when you were middle age, i became an older teen.
when you were in your prime year, i became a full fledged teenage.
when you were in your senior citizen year, i am still a teenage.
now... you are dead due to old age.. i am just a young adult. :(

i guess... thats the short life cycle of a dog... :(

i love you, bobby. :(
will be printing the best picture of you and give it to grandma.

supplementary credit card

2009-12-13T21:09:00.002+08:00

i went to apply for a supplemetary credit card just now !!
coolz shit ! i totally feel like an eighteen year old now lehs !! adult adult ! :)
very fast, me gonna take my car lisence and watch M18 show in cinema ! i haven do that lehs =(

so happy lahs ! but gotta make sure i dun overspend ! :(
FOREVER21 ! WHOO ! no longer have to join sprees when i buy le ! yayayay ! :)

Happy birthday tiff and chris :)

2009-12-10T22:41:00.003+08:00

dear bloggie, sorry for the neglect :(

me just finish me last test today, merchandise buying ! was fine i guess. totally overstudied lo !
kk overstudy is better than understudying !

anyway, its 10th december ! so a happy 18th birthday to tiffany ang wei rong and chris goh chang da ! whoooots !! :D

phototaken feb 2009. still freshies. me still with uber curly hair, wanling still wear braces and tiffy still short hair. teehee ! i think we look better now ! :D
oie ! tiffany ang wei rong ! must take care of me until graduate from poly ah ! :)
MING NIAN AND HOU NIAN JIU KAO NI LE ! XIEXIE ! :)
lurve you very much !!!! happy birthday !!!
thanks for the time spent wibb me ! really appreciate you alot as a friend, just dun everytime bully me can le ! :)
u today never take picture with me lo ! :(
wanling gave me and her bday pressie today. haha. super belated for me ! but still thanks ah ! i really like the bear necklace ! as cuteee as mieee ! :D

hehe.

photo taken: august 2009, took by fedah.
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TOO MR HANDSOME, chris goh chang da !! thanks for being a great friend and a good listener ! now u can do all the things u wanna do legally ! dun do things to illegally, if not ya going to the big house kayz ! LOLOL !
btw, wanted to put your formal pic yo ! but i remember u say u look fat in that pic ! so yeah ! i damn nice okayz ! :)
sorry ! i dun have a decent pic with u !!

ok lah, actually have. but i tink i look very ugly in the pic. but nvm.
anyway, photos extracted from his blog. so credits to that ! :)

i think its uberly cool lo ! i mean two people to born on the same year, same month and same day ! wtf la ! i dun even know any person born same birthday and same year as me lo ! same birthday have though.
just imagine you are strugling to come out from the world, and at the same time there is some one is another short distance part of the world, also struggling to come out ! cool shit !

anyway tiff, present next week kay when we go out ! k lahs !
i giv u a token of appreciation first ! :)

i pain-stakingly hand drew it ! and i give u the red hair !! hahaha ! although its not your copper red ! but this red more striking ! :)
HAHA ! TREAT ME EAT KACHANG PUTEH ON THURSDAY HOR !

k. those who haven't wish them, can fast fast go wish them. left 40 mins ! :)

hai pai tian xin :)

2009-11-30T15:38:00.002+08:00

me just watch a few parts of hai pai tian xin ep5 and wanna go study alr.
da lang is turning back to his luo zhi xiang mode in later of ep5 ! can't wait !!! :D

i lurbe luo zhi xiang ! :D
but i hate studying. :(
nevertheless, i'll start with merchandise buying first and clear wardrobe and watch finish my hai pai tian xin ep5.

wheeeeeeeeeee !! lurve lurve lurve.

with love,
jen.

2009-11-30T00:33:00.006+08:00

HI ~
went john little expo sales today :)
technically yesterday cos i m blogging after 12mn.

anyway, my purchases.

from john little expo sales: 1 fox romper, 2 colour stripped boxers, 1 butterfly granny panties, 2 bras, 1 loreal mascara and 1 ZA wondershaper.
and my pink adidas jacket from the branded foot and shoewear corner. ! :D

heeeeeeee..... and my ugly frog looking at me ! :D

I really love my fox romper ! uber cheap can ! 16 bucks only ! :D
( pardon the fact that i dun have a full length mirror ! :( )
mother say look like pajamas ! =.= den after that she say ok lahs ! the pajamas is nice de pajamas. =.="

my best buy ! adidas pink jacket ! trish ask me take picture cos she want to see ! so yeahs, here is it :D
nice nice? i love it to the max can ! authentic hor !! 50 dollars got 10 cents change ! 49.90 only ! :) not cheap but i think it is value for money. I think i see adidas store sell 79.90 or 89.90 lo ! so i tink i got a good bargain. :)
it is very chio in real life, my phone camera just dun do justice for its chioness lo.

LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT !
( no face cos i remove my makeup alr, n wore specs :{ )
i tink my neck so freaking long ! no wonder char call me giraffe ! haha ! :D

i tink i didn't buy enuff stuffs lehs. :(
so sad..

anyway, i ate only ma lan ramen tday ! super nice de xiao long bao ! and satay for supper and saw chris' friends. haha. was feeling kinda weird n uneasy i tink.
k nvm.

oh ! tricia ! here's another top i promise to show u ! :D

MY DOROTHY PERKINS MICHAEL JACKSON SHIRT/TUNIC ! :D

guess how much i bought it !!??

19 bucks only can ! omfg lahs !!!!

kkiies. i have a really long story with this shirt. ( scroll down if u dun want to read it )

tat one random day, i was shopping with my mother in tamp1 and we went dorothy perkins. i saw this shirt, and i am like omfggggg ! Michael jackson ! not only the design i like, i like the cutting as well. i love i love !! i want to buy !!
i look at the price tag, omfg ! it is 66 dollars can ! i almost fainted. :(
i told my mother, she say it is nice but totally not worth 66 dollars. and she wanted to buy pants as well, which is 49 dollars and a better buy so i decided not to buy this shirt. ok, i may be a spend thrift buy 66 dollars to buy a shirt is really outrageous lahs.

k. nvm. i go home. i keep thinking about this shirt. i was telling myself that i would go back tamp1 dorothy perkins and buy that shirt. i was determined to use my own money alr. k i went back, no more ! :'( so sad can !
maybe i m just not fated with that top. :(

on 30th oct, i was waiting for claire at plaza sing to sign a birthday card for sean.
so dorothy perkins was having some sales, i went in. its really uber crazy cos all the sizes for sales items are super big, like size 16-20. =.=
anyway, i dig n dig. ~ i fucking found this shirt i wanted can !!!!!!!! fuck fuck fuck ! i said.
it near perfection and an amazingly price of 19 dollars. markdown of 47 dollars eh ! that freaking alot.
but.... it wasn't perfect :(
bcos...... it is an uk size 8 top :( and one last piece alr.
( yeah, i am uk size 10. yeah, i am that fat. i dun give damn if u wanna hao lian u r a size 4/6. i dun give shit. )

anyway, uk 8 for a top i really really want lehs !! :(

again, i thought i have no fate with the shirt. nevertheless, i still tried it.
and knnbccb !!!!!!! i can fit lehs ! abit tight though ! i can fucking fit into size 8 lehs ! whooo. i ain't that fat afterall ! wheeeeeeeeee !! :D
happy happy ! anyway. i got it. now i am a happy girl n i just paid 47 dollars less for a shirt i really want ! coolz or not man ! :D

k. i know my story very lame ! =.=

i really like this top alot alot alot ! i even wore it to watch this is it lo ! super got the FEELING ! :D
it would be perfect if this was size 10 instead lo ! can wear loose abit.
but nvm ! it is almost-perfect. :D

oh, i forget to blog abt my birthday sia ! kk ! i'll find time to do so.

off playing cafeworld. ciaoz ~

P.S. mid sem tests coming ! how how how?
studyyyyyyyy lo.............

hurt

2009-11-27T18:43:00.004+08:00

so hurt.
i am that sad. yet i dun hear what i expect.
i dunno what i did to piss you off. but apparently, my apologies are that worthless, that you don't want to hear.
great, i just cried.

:(

no appropriate words i can blog now. tongue tied.

:'(

fucking sad

2009-11-26T20:19:00.004+08:00

tokyo trip is fucking postponed to april 2010 !
crazy or not. yeah. fucking sad. like seriously. :'(

k. i am still going no matter what ! tokyo ! i will go ! no matter what fuck happens. hope during april, dey wun postpone again. i m totally pissed.

k. moving on.
me, miss christine ng and elvina went to apply visa, supposedly lahs, for tokyo trip. so lame shit. we went there, no flight itenerary, den cannot apply. =.=
k nvm. miss ng ask us we can go do it ourselves.
somehow i tink the japanese embassy very smart. of course need flight itenerary ! if dun have = not confirmed = means cannot anyhow apply visa.

anyway, got on to taxi ! and elvina dropped in orchard area and she intro me and miss ng a nice place to buy nice bags !! :D me and miss ng chit chatted in the taxi and we both dropped in tamp mall cos i wanna buy jeans and she went to see her intern students.

tried clothes in topshop. nice? 63 dollars uh. if u are wondering y so short, cos it is a cropped top. :)

my makeup is so light yesterday !

from mango. i look like some cottage girl !

____________________________________________________________________

whoo ! today first avenue hit highest sales ever ! 670 dollars lehs ! according to geok's twitter ! i also ain't sure of the exact ! but i noe its damn high ! though mostly is our class peepz buy de lahs !

bought from 1st avenueeeeee ! star dress 27 dollars, bought on tues, supporting wanling class. backpack bought today 25 dollars; i dunno how long i nvr carry backpack le lo ! i tink since sec 1 or 2 uh ! i only carry tote bags when i got older.
neh mind ! new style new style ! :D
and star dress so short lahs ! can only be my tunic. agrrr. nvm nvm ! its niceee ryte? =D
sequins hard to wash though.

i also bought alot of snacks uh ! :(

forget about money lahs ! so whatever. i save so much just for tokyo trip n shit happens.
anyway, i alr try to restrain my shopping alr lo.
i bought
3 dorothy perkins tops + 1 dorothy perkins shoe + 1 topshop dress + 6 online tops + 2 spag tops from cotton on + 3 tshirts from cotton on + 2 flats from cotton on+ 2 bandaged skirts+ 3 tops from isetan + 1 wallet from f21 spree

k crazy. i actually call this saving up. =.=
i tink if i nvr restrain, the list would be even longer lahs. honestly, i m trying to restrain shopping for the trip ! really ! i would definitely buy more than this man ! i constantly need new clothes. :(

would be buying this as well ! :) niceeee? :)

will blog more later. stay tuned

with love, jen.THE DESIGN CLOSET: Where Style Unveils

smoking kills

2009-11-23T03:39:00.004+08:00

hi.
have not been blogging for some time alr, even my twitter i can't really be bothered. even though that bit of pieces of my worthless life.
reason being, i keeping more and more things to myself just like last time when i live without a blog. i would still update alittle of my thoughts though. if you want to see photos, i think facebook would be a better alternative...

I am really dissapointed with some friends lately. its like they don't appreciate my friendship at all. they take things i do for granted, they don't even thank me for what i did. does good/best friends say those kind of words to hurt each other? friends forever? i don't think so..
( nope. its not any of my best girlfriends i am talking about, if you are wondering who )

anyway, i told this matter to only one person which is serene, my granddaughter. its kinda random la, i also dunno y i tell her this. lmao. but after talking her, i do understand friends come and go. when they don't deserve you, you gotta just let them off, its pointless holding a fake friendship esp. when you are suppose to be good friends. Its totally right, isn't it?

Maybe, she can get cooler friends than me. i wish her luck.

just a random photo.
it is making me really sad i dunno why.
k, i bluff. i noe y...

more and more of my friends are taking up smoking. :(
thats nothing i can say. i cannot stop anyone of you either.
i am not gonna whine abt how smoking is harmful n how it can kill you because not as if smokers do not know abt this.

no, its no longer that smoking is for that " cool image " bcos people smoke when there are no one around. so how can you show people you are "cool" when you are smoking alone or with friends.

no, its no longer abt the age matter as well bcos most of you are actually in the legal age to smoke. even u are 16 and 17, i believe you wld also be matured enuff to think for yourself.

smoking for that shiok feeling? perhaps. but it ain't that shiok when i tried smoking. yes, for a stupid guy whom i like when i was younger. =.= k, forget abt that. it was purely dumbness.

anyway, really dissapointed with the fact that some of my friends went for some shesha or shisha session n posted pics on facebook? i dunno hw to describe that dissapointing feeling, really. according to wiki, shisha is worse than smoking becos the smoke that is inhaled is unfiltered smoke compared to the cigarette which has filters. Shisha smoker tends to become more vulnerable to respiratory diseases and cancers.

whatever. not like they dunno anyway.

i wish my grandma wld stop smoking too. but how can someone who smokes at the tender age of 9 to stop. its totally crazily impossible to stop ryte? :(

i wish everyone who wants to quit smoking best of luck.

1st avenue's suay-est day everrr

2009-11-19T22:35:00.003+08:00

a day worth blogging totally.

k, b4 i start the entry properly. just wanna rant something first.
can u stand people not delivering what they promise?
its like they ask u whether you want to eat KFC or Mcdonalds and you answered Mcdonalds. den dey would be okok and later buy KFC for u. kaoz. the feeling ah... is like " why ask at the first place?" I probably alright with eating KFC at the first place but since you asked a question, i thought i had a freedom of choice. u simply just didn't bothered with what i had said so why ask?
k, enough whine. shall eat KFC.

P.S. the matter is not really about Mcdonalds and KFC, just an example situation.

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1st day of store operation in semester 2.2 for 2r04. it definitely is like a disaster and i am not even kidding about it when i said disaster.

dearest mr chris goh chang da didn't come for 1st avenue trading, i had to take his place in confectionary cart. =.=
sorry for friends who actuali went 1st avenue to find me but i wasn't there but thanks for those who came, super much appreciated and i feel super loved when you all actually buy something for the sake of supporting and not really buying for the sake for yourself.

anyway, replaced chris for his role. day started really bad alr. stock taking was super messy as all are new stocks and today is the first day. u cannot blame my product knowledge cos i didn't know i had to do confectionary. if i had to do confect, i wld definitely find out the stocks first.

k cut the chase. Big wind and Big rain came, wind completely blown of the push cart even though it is locked. -.- Yes, i am serious, it is not even exagerated. the whole scene was drama mama. esp the random passerby held our cart when it was toppling over, he even got hurt. Worse thing, the food kept flying, it even flew to the stage area lahs ! -.- i pick up, fly somemore. -.-
really gotta thank those random passerbys that helped me pick up the merchandise. whole situation was pure messy. Fyi, dearest uncle went break at the wrong time. well, it wasn't his fault lahs i noe, but still agrrr !! so left me, charlotte n weina. its like wtf, 3 weak n helpless girls dealing the entire flooded cart. omgz. k lahs, we are not that weak and helpless lahs ! BUT STILL !! k ! definitely not helpless cos i ran to 1st avenue at my highest speed n asking my beloved classmates to help ! siao liao, i was super drenched but i was nothing compared to charlotte and weina.

classmates cleaned up the flooded push cart. waterlevel like 3mm high? crazily siaoz. but everything was organised and i tink we did great handling the entire situation. very good crisis management !! (:

k, then push back the cart that time, hit the legendary signboard. super big one kayz ! siaoz liaoz. dramatic not !!

:(

k. i go eat pizza n study for comm skills test le. i slept super long due to 2 panadols given by caring yi ling ( thanks alot girl ! ) had to eat it cos i tink i got a concussion as my head got knocked by the pushcart. super duper pain just now. but after my long sleep, it feel so much better ! (: THANKS YI LING ! =D

omgomgz. comm skills test 2mr how? HAVEN STUDY SIOL !! :(

i want to fall in love

2009-11-16T01:41:00.002+08:00

i want to fall in love,
fall in love to point where it overpowers me and you fill me up with your love
and it would be all that i need.
And my love would be all that you need.
All we would need is each other

I am writing this and maybe you are writing about it too.
Would you be there waiting for me? Are you there? Can you find me?
Let's fall in love. I want to fall in love with you.

Extracted from fuckyeahhlove.tumblr.com

I change some sentences because i want it to relate to me.

happy birthday mum !

2009-11-12T23:18:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY TO MY MUM~ wheeee. her last time being a 40+ woman. next year she wld b half a century old ! oh man.
yeahs. me and mum only 4 days apart for our bday. yeahs, i noe its awesome. :))))
happy bday once again. hope can go malaysia for a short getaway with her :(
happy 18th birthday to MR TAN ZI WEI as well ! love him :) !

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just wanna blog alittle bit of some of my personal stuffs. caught "this is it" with tiffany yesterday. Michael Jackson is not good.. not good at all.. because good is an understatement to describe him. he was awesome ( any better word to describe him?) ! yes, i dun even tink he sld be king of pop. he sld totally upgrade to god of pop alr. his new song " this is it" is damn soothing. :)

I love smooth criminal of course, and thriller. the new zombies super high tech lo ! not like those 20 years ago wan, so simple. n he moonwalk during smooth criminal. loves loves loves.
though some parts i wanna sleep alr cos was so tired setting up 1st avenue u noe. :( felt so guilty. bobian la. some songs slow songs lehs. zzz.

anyway, my favourite song man in the mirror, it was also the last song of the show. honestly, i teared abit. it was so freaking sad. n it somehow motivated me to be a better person. :'(

i wanna thank tiffany for pei-ing me. though maybe she does not really appreciate the songs, bt really thanks. yr ticket free lahs, i noe. working in GV super dua wan lo. haha ! :P

anyway, strive to be a better person.
sorry of using words to hurt anybody. i am 18 now, more mature, i will be more sensitive and be a better person like wat MJ is inspiring me to be one.

xoxo

friends come and go. i can't expect them to be my side forever ,isn't it? but i am dissapointed, really, i am. :(

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MIIEEEEEEEE

2009-11-08T00:00:00.008+08:00

I turn 18 today :) take a look at the time i created this entry ! 12.00.00 !! OMG ! accurate or not? i even got the seconds right ! tiffany says i will be lucky for my entire 18 ! (:
whoots !

and i received back my phone back on 7nov. its a huge surprise gift la. sony ericsson called me yesterday come n take ! :) yay ! miss pink pill u come back to mama ! lovelieeeeeee.

thanks for the bday wishes pple ! have a great day ahead ! and i go buy 4D later ! :D

HAPPY 27TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU, MY LOVELY HEARTHROB ! :)
wahs ! hard to find perfect image of him for my blog lo. all so nice ! wahs ! was drooling just now when googling for his pic ! saw some half naked pics ! whoooo..

anyway, i also wanna wish:
weilin, my bgss junior- happy 17th birthday :)
elaine yuki ( blogger i read) - happy 21st birthday :)
angela- happy 22nd birthday :)

haha ! all diff ages ! but its fate to be same birthday isn't it? :)

omg ! just imagine ethan ruan celebrating wif joe cheng n mike he later !
i can fantasize that they celebrating wif me as well ryte? XP

hehe ! thanks everyone who wished me ! hope u have a great day ahead, lovelies. :)

november is my fave month

2009-11-07T01:48:00.012+08:00

hi readers ! :) its my last day of being 17 ! in less than another 24 hours, imma gonna be 18 ! fucking 18 ! M18 ! credit card and car liscence here i comeeeeeeeeeeee !! :D

anyway, gotta blog abit first to clear some photos.

5th nov: early bday celebration for mr jeff ho !

HAPPY "28TH" BIRTHDAY for 6th of nov. :)

My awesome class ! 2r04 !!

almost died upon tagging the class ! thanks jun yi for helping me tag some pple !

MR HO LOOK SO HAPPIEEE HOR ! ~

6th Nov: my early bday celebration by best girl friends

super budget whatever, venue whatever. what it matters is dey r celebrating for me. :D

i am super surprised seriously, i wasn't even prepared for a partay. thank goodness i nvr took out my camera. so happy la ! but hor ! i wearing casuals n wearing little makeup :(

nevertheless, i had really a good time. thanks for the super chio,pink and expensive bikini from sheer romance.

anyway, i will give a proper update abt the celebration soon wif photos. just give u pple a sneak preview first. :D

HEHE ! so happy ! wanna thank afina, dilys, yi mei and mei ting for this. truly appreciate it, forever it will be.=D

i wanna thank charlotte too for her super duper cute bday card and pink n purple lollipop ! :) she actually knows i love pink ! :) super duper touched ! she is the first person who gave me a present ! :) THANKS ~

p.s. i m not 18 yet ! muahaha ! can't wait for today to pass ! 22 more hours to go ! omgggggggggg.. oh yahs ! gimme some time to celebrate my bday first den i will blog kayz? :)

birthday is only once a year but friends are people who would be with you forever in a lifetime. thanks for awesome friends. :D

first bnu tutorial

2009-11-05T01:44:00.004+08:00

had my first Basics of nutrition tutorial in morning,9am. boring fuck man. dun like the teacher, she seems so sickening n fierce. anyway, its damn lame bcos it only lasted till 9.45 n my lesson is over. =.= k ! its a good thing actually.

handed my passport for japan visa application to miss chan instead miss ng bcos she is not around. so i was chit chating with miss chan, den she asked me go see the notice board. den she said : congratz kahjen, you got into calculus. hmm.. oh well, i got into calculus for my year3 elective. honestly, i ain't sure if its a good thing lo. but well, i dun have a choice, so yeah. i would have to work hard i know. :) so wish me luck k pple !

went home nap, and headed to tamp to exchange my spoil shorts in cotton on. kudos to their good customer service. :) i also bought an off shoulder, got cat cartoon somemore lehs from isetan. 19 bucks for a nice top. :) i noe i sldn't spend money now, but i really like it. at least i refrain myself from going dorothy perkins man ! cos now got sales ! omg.

i also went to art box to buy a card for mr jeff ho. and mandy is working dere ! chit chatted with her for a little while. N due to her help, i bought a bday card with staff discount. kudos to her too. :)

hehe ! nice? :) his bday just 2 days before mine. haha ! XP
i am not hinting k? just stating a fact. LOL

went home n got bored. haha ! i noe i damn lame to wear fake eyelashes at home. =.= wahlau. i cannot appreciate it myself mehs? LOLOL. hw i wish i can get extensions. :(
with lash extension, i am able to apply quick makeup. with long eyelashes, mayb i just put pressed powder, few coats of mascara, blusher n lipgloss. less than one minute i tink ! i totally will save on the liner and eyeshadow. cos the lashes are already like BOOMZ. so its kinda exaggerating to putting more stuffs. u noe ? less is actually more. :)

sigh. i wish these are real lashes lahs. :(

nvm la. fake eyelashes are good enuff. :)

ever felt like this?

2009-11-04T01:12:00.002+08:00

i feel so desperate in finding the one to talk to.
am i even able to grasp something?
i feel so fustrated, filled with uncertainty. i think i don't get support out of the things i wanna do.
:(

i tried hard, i did. i just dun wanna lose people that belong to me. i feel everyone is leaving. i feel so lonely.
it just seems that my laughters aren't genuine anymore. i can't cry out either i dunno y, is that what u call numbness?

why do my life has to go downs when i am really motivated to work hard? really, what kind of obstacles i have to face, what hardship i have to endure before reaching a crystal clear world?

this post just made zero sense.

counting down, 4 more days.
for those who care too.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2009-11-01T18:46:00.002+08:00

its been a year.

one year ago, i was so bored and just created a blog without much thinking. And again, i thought blogging won't last. those who noe me damn long, sld noe i started blogging during sec 1. and each blog don't last more than 2 months. Yes. i tink the blog b4 jenuine-reality, was the 2nd longest. which is like 4 months? haha ! YEAHS. can u find my previous blog? nopex, its not deleted yet. :)

anyway, today marks a year of blogging in jenuine-reality.blogspot.com and longest blog in my history. i wld like to thank my blog , be it good or bad memories, it has still accompanied me for one year. :) i am really a much happier person now i must say. :) i hope this blog will accompany me for many more years and record the best of my memories and perhaps one day i die, my decendants can read my blog when they think of me. :)

happy brirthday bloggie love. wld like to thank those who read my blog for a year already or even new readers. Much appreciated to u people. :)

xoxo jen,

cheers from jenuine-reality.blogspot.com who is a year old today. :D

annoyed

2009-10-31T15:31:00.003+08:00

let me get some facts right, dun fucking assume things out of me.
1. dun put words into my mouth. wat i didn't say means wat it doesn't means.

2. i am a 100 percent pure chinese, nothing to do with malay or whatsoever. i am not from china as well.

3. i am not a singaporean. yes. u fucking think that foreigners are lower class n blah n even less smarter than u. that is a misconception.
i am a half a malaysian n half singaporean. i could apply for citizenship for singapore if i want to. but i don't want to becos i don't wanna live in singapore for my entire life. i might migrate to australia. u r just a frog in your well thinking all cheenas are cheap n lower class.

4. dun fucking preach your religious theory to me. i fucking hate preachers and religion stuffs. i am a free thinker. in more cruder words, i dun give a damn about gods. yeahs, say something like "god will punish me" n that sort of things becos i dun care.

5. my full name is chia kah jen jenny. jenny is not in my birth cert. but it is given by my parents when i am born. the reason i used jen is not bcos it is higher class from what u say or something. it is my fucking name. Jen is easy to remember and it sounds more closer. u can call me kah jen if u want to, if u can say it properly. dun put words in my mouth like i dun like pple to call me kah jen. it is a name given by grandfather. i love it. n i shall emphasis on this. Jen is my name as well, not i want pple to call me Jen. u simply anyhow distort the facts.

6. yeahs. i love food n i am fat? so? wat rights do u have to ask me to go for a diet? so u trying to say i sld aim to be like you? bleah, i dun give shit. i wanna be fat for i want to. ( k la, this is dumb saying this cos i m trying to lose so weight, haha ! )

7. i am pro gay. ask my sexual orientation yea. yeah, i am gay. haha ! yeah right. i am a straight lah, for your jesus sake. even i am gay, so yeah what can u do? fall in love with me? yeah, i think that is very much possible.

8. i am going to be 18 years old. i am born on 8th november 1991. believe it or not? yeahs, i may look mature but not old. yahs, keep making yrself happy upon saying yourself looking younger than me. good for u, self deceiving the fact u are older than me.

9. u wanna argue with me tat my family is rich n ask my mother don't play shares n that sort of thing. yeahs, true enuff, my mother earn more on shares that her real job. so? wtf? yeahs, i do live in a condo, but i am not rich. u could just define that on well to do. wif u being ignorant, u only thought that shares are on high risk n wat my mother doing is plainly a GAMBLE. let me teach u a new word. it is call an INVESTMENT. shesh.. to think u r a business student as well.

10. regarding makeup n me being a vainpot. watever, i m not a vainpot. i just simply like makeup and feel right n confident having them on. i can go out n take pics without makeup. again, pls dun put words into my mouth.

k. 10 absolute facts without any lies. this is not for specific pple thought i m annyoed by specific pple. i guess u hav to get some facts right abt me before assuming wat kind of person i am. lastly, i am not a bimbo thanks.

P.S. i might offend some pple with wat i wrote above. if yes, i apologise. remember it is just the fact i got offended first and i pen down my rants. sorry if i have annoyed you too.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY SEAN KWEK WEI DE AND HAPPY HALLOWEEN. ! :D
super random. haha. my last post for oct09.

2MR IS ALSO SOMETHING'S SPECIAL DAY. CAN U GUESS WHAT? NOT A HUMAN, BUT A THING. IF U ARE HERE, U CONFIRM NOE WHAT IS IT WAN. R U ABLE TO GUESS IT? :)

XOXO

T for thurday, tired, tedious, trading

2009-10-29T23:44:00.003+08:00

refer to my title, thanks.
fucking long day today, almost died. and my sim contacts n phone contacts overwrite. so if i know u this year, i most prolly don't have your number. :( sad lahs, i damn stupid, please tell me your numbers, friends. thanks alot ! oh man. damn stupid. :(
yeahs, only for the recent friends i noe this year are affected, others sld be fine. i think affected ones are my year 2 classmates and my ex colleagues. do tell me your numbers alright ! thanks thanks. :)

some haywire tday wif project, i m glad that evryting's fine at the very end. :) thank goodness no need to go to supplier hse today bcos i still have comm skills to finish up. omg. yeahs, gonna chiong finish after blogging. n i fell alsleep during bnu class. sianz ttm. u can't really blame me for falling alsleep. my lessons are from 9am-7pm wif only 1 hour break, n i used break to do project. as quoted from mr roche, our timetable really disgusting sia. lol.

oh ! mr jeff ho damn farnie today also ! haha. he keep remembering the fact i wanna lose weight i dunno y. anyway, his bday also coming soon, 6 nov ! he turning 28 ! so young hor? but alot of pple tell me like not true lehs. but i believe lehs. ok wat, 28 years old for a lecturer.

n one last thing i wanna rant. i was late for a freaking 5 mins for my rp lesson n i was marked a late. ok, wtf. i dunno teacher pms or wat? she damn petty la. she made alot of big fuss in small little things lo. dun tink i can get distinction for rp2 le la, she seems hard to please. :(
wish me luck peepz !

k lahs. off finishing my comm skills.
brb. later blog again. :)