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Just had my macroeconomics paper just now... sucks lahs ! fuck man. there goes 20 whopping marks for date response. kaoz. good bye to an "A". * slaps self hard *. :( ok.. fine.. that is not the end of the world.. shall sleep awhile and really mug hard for retail accounting. wish me luck. tata for now.. JEN WILL STUDY HARD !! finish macro notes by today (tues) RA2 notes by tomorrow (wed) no touching macro ! Macro all the way !! (thurs) Macro exam + study Bus stats (fri) study Ra2+ bus stats+ porm (sat) study Ra2 (sun) Oh manz !!! i wish exams faster finish ! :(  JEN WILL STUDY HARDDDDD !!!! GAMBATTE !!! :D ok. some micro-blogging for now. finished two chapters of macroecons. very proud becos last semester i only started studying on 5th day of my study week. Yes, shitty start=shitty results. although i slacked on fri n sat, but at least i did start now lahs. 2 chapters lehs ! not remarkable but at least i have started. Ok. now is 3.24 am. i am going to reward myself with one episode of boys before flowers ! shiok ! :D den am going to sleep cos 2mr, technically this morning, will be studying PORM with tiffany and wan ling ! i cannot be late later lors ! anyways. go watch bbf le. goodbye for now ! shesh... my micro-blogging is so long. i am so not suited for micro-blogging. HAHA. okok. byebye. :D Please scroll down to read previous entry before reading this entry. thank you. =D  happy valentines everyone :D thank you to Wan Ling who made flowers for me ( and sorry that i keep dropping it ) thank you to Siti for your small note even thought 90 percent are insults. =.= thank you to some of my classmates who gave out sweets, chocs. :) i wanna wish all the couples celebrating stay happy together as long as possible. :) And wish afina would have a perfect Vday with derrick. :) and also to other couples i know of. Oh well, if u r single now. Fret not. True love is worth the wait. 2day is just a normal day for me lahs cos i am single. :) Its not a bad thing to me becos i would rather stay alone and enjoy my day rather than dating those jerks i know of. So yeaps ! I can study for my upcoming exams too. Yeapz. And i may not have a boyfriend but i have great friends ! am satisfied already. :) Enjoy your vday girls and boys. Be grateful and appreciative. And boys must take note of small details of girls ok, gotta be more sensitive. :) HAPPY VALENTINES ~ WHEEEE ~~ Just something short.. Two years ago's Valentines, u made me cried. i feel really very very sad at that time. Your actions were small but enough to break one's heart thoroughly. You may not know but i very afraid when you did that. Yeah, being strong is me. After some time passed, around one year plus after that sad valentine, u knew abt that i cried for u on that particular Vday. I know you are very apologetic but actions u did just can't be taken back anymore ryte? I have never blame you, in fact i blame my own stupidity. I am sorry i have been stupid. But i will never regret with what i have told you. :) and I am proud of my courage. Friday the 13th ! Black friday. Omgzzz.. !! Hope u people didn't had a bad day today. Nahs, i didn't have a bad day. In fact, i had a really great day today ! :D Morning, woke up at 8.15am and lesson starts at 9am. I rushed like fucked like that, no bath, no makeup. Yah lahs ! agrrr... Just in case u r wondering why i wanna rush out. This is due to the bet with tiffany lahs ! If i can reach earlier than 9am, she will buy me bubble tea. And yes ! i actually lose ! I gotta treat her a meal and bubble tea. omg. monday i cannot be late again ! if not really must treat le. Shouldn't have rush out like seriously, should have take my own sweet time. Econs tutorial ended early. i really like Miss Nancy Tan alot lehs ! :( I think she is the best tutor i have met in TP. Hope to see her again. :) Anyway, early lunch with Tiffany, Wan Ling, Xiao Xuan and her friend, EJ today at Sugar Loaf. Wow ! dere really classy k? and got CSS Yu yang also. Personally, i think he is quite cute-looking lahs, but not that handsome though. :P [ XMM pls dun kill me ] Price is reasonable, but food okok lahs. ( XX, please send some pics from your friend EJ's camera lehs ! ) i wan put !! :D Did I say i bumped to afina when i was on my way to sugar loaf ! yahs lahs ! super happy to see her. She anxiously asked me if i wanna go shopping with her. Haha, w/o thinking i said yes. I m actually surprised when she say if i am not going, she will go alone. So, after my lunch i go back home and bath and apply some makeup. Cos feel kind of weird to go out without bathing, and insecured w/o makeup. And so ! Met up with afina and yi mei in tamp mall ! :D Wheee.. to me its sort of like a Vday celebration. :) Dinner at Pasta Mania and we tried on super loads of clothing in Cotton On, but nvr buy. =.= Ok. Anyone want to buy shorts with me? 2 for 30 dollars. i only wanna buy one. Some pictures to show off:   We took loads of photos lors. dey were like. aye not nice not nice. In fact they are really very pretty lahs. I am the ugly one =.= Oh. My camera died on me again becos i only charge it for 5 mins before going out to meetup with them. O.o Afina had her 5 mega pixel camera phone repaired. If i knew her phone is on repairation, i would brought my canon 3.1 mega pixel camera instead lors. Agrr... So used yi mei and my phone camera to take pictures instead. both 1.3 mega pixels only ! pls dun mind the quality, if r used to clear pictures in my blog. Other pictures from both camera phone: .jpg)        You can compare the shitty quality photos with those above photos. Cannot make bigger liao. Bigger=Worser quality. Ok nvm. at least still can take photo. Anyway, really love hanging with these 2 girlfriends. Loads of gossip, bimbotic talks and LOL together. Also shopping is indeed very fun. We must try to hang out everytime ok? (: Love hanging out with u guys lahs ! Feel very relived. Suppose to study 2day :P, but i nvr regret hanging wif u two lehs !! happy to the max. Yes yes, i remember the fact that someone is turning 18 soon lurs ! Dun go pub w/o me hors !! :P And fina ! hope u have a sweetest and happiest Valentine day with your Derrick hors ! :D Stay happy and true and dun forget kah jen. :D Damages from shopping for today: ( pictures taken by my 3.1 mega pixel camera cos 8.1 mega pixel camera charging )  1. Twilight book ! i know now what era already den buy ryte. Oie i dun read books wan ok. i actually bought a story book sia ! i am so so into it. 2. Bought 2 UGNY nail polish. freaking cheap and its big. I love the colors i bought 3. Hair Clips, afina buy for me de. =D thanks hors !  Daughter dear ah dear. Stop sleeping in crucial time lahs. U very important to mummy wan lehs. I know its mummy fault nvr give u eat, but u must stay strong mahs ! Lol. Now giv u rest abit. Shall use your " kor kor " take instead. Ok, 12 o clock already. Shall post up Vday message in the next entry. Scroll up okies. (: hellooo.. this week is tedious day ~ wheeeee !! i finished two presentations, comm skills and psychology. on tuesday, comm skills presentation, debbie lee commented the way i present was enthusiastic. omg ! like wow ! hehe. grp members and i wore formal that day u know !! took loads of photos. should upload soon when i got those A4 size photos. :D on thursday, namely today. I was super late for my porm tutorial becos i camwhored at home ( super bad thing, shall tell u why later ). Oh, reached school very late but porm tutor is really nice lahs, still mark me present. but i wasn't the latest lahs. heehee ! anyway, went to collect pictures, but not yet valid in xorex printing yet ! slow lehs ! hope 2mr can collect. After that went to eat kway chap as breakfast with wan ling, xiao xuan and mich at mensa. I love tau pok the most ! damn juicy lahs ! WL and XX dun like the pig stomach lehs which i tink its a yummy part too. I dun like the kway, ok lahs, not dun like but is cannot finish. Dun put so much kway for me lehs ! put more tau pok. Me likeeee... haha. enough of kway chap. Me, WL and XX went to comp lab. they two went to my blog and spam spam spam, take a look at my tagboard and u will know le. Oie ! Stop spaming my tagboard hors, not contributing to any benefits okayz. Lame pple jiu shi lame pple. LOL. After that received call from mei ting, she jio-ed for lunch. As u know i ate kway chap already, i was too full for my lunch, so didn't eat. She kept smsing me but i was playing game in the comp lab, den i asked WL to pick up and tell her i am not free. After the game, i went to meet her. From far, i saw two guys talking to her... den suddenly she called out to me... MT: OIE ~ y so long? Me: Sorry sorry. playing game MT: You mind they join? Me: Nopez LOL. the two guys is mei ting's classmates, kenneth and stanley. wahlau. i feel very bad lors. that stupid mei ting nvr tell me got pple join. i stil slowly finish my game, slowly walk to cargo lift, den realised got other two pple waiting also. Paisehs to the max. So lunched with mei ting, kenneth and stanley. The guys are very funny lahs, especially kenneth. His jokes are damn " cold ", and he still have 45cent bus fare lors. Damn good ryte? Btw kenneth, dun call me Maggie Q cos of my hair ok? Call me Maggie Q for the resemblance with the real Maggie Q. :P Practiced script with psycho members for the very last time le :( den we went tutorial, with our half prepared presentation, but well i think we did fairly good lahs, not with the presentation but with the questions ! omgz. i anyhow answer the question on what teacher asked. Hope project able to let me pass psycho lahs. OMGz.. :( okok.. shall not go on that.. last tutorial was fun. really enjoyable. but den Yu ting (not mei ting hor ! ) , i wanna slap u lahs. agrrr.. keep rushing for time so we didn't get to take proper pictures. agrrr ! u so rushy den nvr class pics too. Den when taking class pictures ryte, chee dan gao ! my camera died on me ! suddenly no battery. Used jia le's camera instead. faster mei ting ! go get pictures from her. i want to blog ! haha ! i enjoy my last psycho class :) very nice to have the happening and enjoyable pple dere ! hope to see them again bahs! :D Way to go T06 !! hahahahaha !!! :D okok. shall blog with pictures soon. Formal presentation, Psycho Presentation and i realised still got CNY pictures with my cuzzy. Wahlau eh... Okies lahs... Dun expect too much ok, exams are coming. Kkiiezz.. its around 2am already. i shall go play game for a while and sleep soon and wake up early. had a bet wif tiffany. if i m early, i get a meal from her. She believes that i cannot do it. But i can lors ! Ok. haha. i know this is meaningless long post ! but to me got alot of meaning okiiez. Anyway, pictures coming along ! stay tuned. bye ~ today's moon is exceptionally circular... yarhs. because today is the 15th mahs.. last day of chinese new year... and chinese valentines day ! and so.. HAPPY CHINESE VALENTINES DAY ! :D sigh. feel quite sad on my coursework results u noe. RA2 got C+, Porm C and Comm skills D. Very whatever ryte? @#$%^&*(*&^% hais. banged my head on tiff's shoulder like what yi mei used to do it on me. i nvr understand y she always do it. but now i do. becos u feel like killing yourself so u bang your head. however, u dun really wanna kill yourself so u bang it on someone's shoulder. lol. i tink so lahs. anyway, went parkway myself 2day and was a "fruitful day". was supposedly to help mummy collect the two bottles of bird nest. but i was like... aye... since i am here already.. might as well go shop ryte? and so...  and yeahs .. i would go on a shopping spree when i am really very depressed. Correction ! it should be a spending spree instead. oh well besides the two bird nests collected, i bought 3 dorothy perkins tops, 2 denim bottoms from Cotton on, Disposable boxers from Giant, 200grams of Famous Amos cookies, 2 hokkien mee, 2 bubble tea. Ok. mayb 2 hokkien mee and 2 bubble tea is necessity cos its me n mum's dinner. But can u believe it ! i spent 50 dollars in less than 2 hours k? OMFG. i can only earn 6 bucks per hour lehs. yet i spent 50 dollars in 2 hours. ok... whatever seriously... i do love what i buy k? Dorothy Perkins and Topshop are like having really big sales i tell u. But the thing is their sales items are like size 14-20 ! omg lahs ! ok.. i know i m fat lahs but not that big sized until i wear size 14. i m a UK size 10-12. quite big already compared to the pettie asian size. But i am also pettie in american size ok ! LOL. whatever la. bought the 3 dorothy perkins top in size 12 which is like big for me cos i usually wear size 10. but nvm i can wear in baggy and wear tube top inside or something. :) haha.. u see lahs ! good to be small size mehs pple? like that u all cannot buy clothes during sales u noe? if i were a size 14-20 ah, i confirm buy alot of clothes already lurs. I also like boxers i bought ! i prefer wearing boxers than panties. :P LOL ! ahaha.. i got guys fetish... sshhhh... ZZZ ! enough of my bimbotic entry ! now i shall get into the straight point alrites... tomorrow... comm skillz presentation... nervous... :S ... and the sad thing... 2mr is also last day that we can b in the same class as yuan ni and xiao xuan already... :( it was really good to know them both and we have the chance to do same project.. anyway some pics of my comm skills group that we took the other time.  Xiao Xuan took a candid of me and tiff. :P  Xiao Xuan take me...  And i take Xiao Xuan. :P here is xiao xuan ! super ke ai ~ okies... let's take a group photo !! :D err.. not a perfect shot lehs.. AGAIN !!
Oie ! y cut out my pretty face? )&^%$$%^&*( !!!
oie ! wan ling.. y u close your eye !!??
thats perfect (almost lahs) !! :)
sigh to yuan ni and xiao xuan.. no more you guys taking same subject already. sigh to tiffany, wan ling and shan yong. This week last week of school already. have no idea how poly life would be without u guys as classmates. :( anyway, 2mr is our day already ! the endless week of rushing out projects and compiling and collated. It would be all worthwhile tomorrow. :) 2morrow wear formal, must take loads of loads of pics alrites. (: XX.. i doing the compilation scripts already ok. Stop doubting me hors. much loves everyone, Jenuine Jen. finished psycho test today. paper seriously buanged. :( i have no idea how i should pass psychology... alright... i still have the last component, project. i haven present so i should seriously work on that part. i gotta prompt my mates too. i tink dey are seriously too " down" already, i gotta lift their spirits up ! ok, paper fucking difficult lahs. my best topic of stress never come out alot lors. short questions abt intelligence and personality. My two topics that i nvr study alot. wah kaoz. i wanna kill myself liaoz. after paper, i went really very very down. :( i told my project grp mates: " i think i have "learned helplessness". Desmond went: " you have mehs? You very helpless? " =.= yah lahs ! very helplessness ok ! kfc with mei ting after project, i told her that i would be a vegetarian for a day if i am able to get a D for my psychology. If i get a C, i would be a vegetarian for 2 days. guess what she reply me? 1st reply: Wahs.. that day you are vegetarian ryte? i am gonna take you out and i will eat loads of meat infront of you and tempt you. 2nd reply: Be vegetarian is good for you lors !you seriously gotta stop eating your own species~ dun be a cannibal. [ apparently she is talking about pig...] HAHA. whatever lahs. i dun even think i have a chance to be a vegetarian lors. the purpose of that is to enable me to save those animals for one day. let dem live one more day. LOL. i kind ryte? oh, btw just now i mentioned about learned helplessness ryte? it is an effect of stress whereby u concluded an unpleasant stimulus and accepted things as they are without trying any further when you can actually remedy the situation. ok.... stop being psychotic jen ! its over already... oh oh ! i just did a depression test on the intenet, i got the link from my psychology lecture notes. i got moderate depression and was recommened to go to a psychiatrist. Seriously ! siaoz. u know the questions super standard wan lahs. for example, they asked do you lose sleep or oversleep. do u lose interest on something you like to do? damn standard lahs. the choices of the answers are like: Everyday, Several days, Not at all. Of course i have moderate depression lahs, all my answers several days wat. damn stupid lahs that test. Say what i wil have the tendency to hurt myself. Like real ! my body is my father and my mother give wan lors. it does not belong to me ! i will not hurt myself. But i will bash the wall sometimes though. Ok lahs ! i also got pinch myself and slap myself. but that wan is call inflicting pain mahs? i dun think so lehs. anyway, my extended family dinner is change to tomorrow ! with cousins and auntie uncle ! and nephew as well as my nephew's grandmother who is my cousin's mother in law. Did i mention that my cousin is pregnant? And she is carrying twins lehs ~ happy to the max for her :D And i can be an auntie again ! keke. She should be able to give birth on April. :) I LOVEE BIG FAMILY GATHERINGS. since young ! good food and see my cousins again ! happy lahs :) to do list: Comm Skills powerpoint animations to do by Sunday, Preparation for Psychology presentation, Study for the upcoming examination. My blog is gonna be one of my organiser also. :D however, i am still waiting my organiser for Vday okies. *Hint hint* :D alrites. CKJ back on track back on track ! u can do it ok ? be optimistic alrite? everything would be fine at the end of the day. lastly, hello strangers who reads my blog and have do my poll ! do say hi on my tagboard ya. :) ok. byebye liao. i wanna watch boys before flowers. handsome goo joon pyo. Mei ting i wanna put my blogsong as " because i am stupid " ! I am sure you would like it as much as me and thanks for letting me know tat u r my regular blog reader. =) hur hur. i dun wan study yet. i want watch Boys before Flowers. Show you guys my boyfriend:
alrites. go watch my show now. Thanks all the friends who gave me support and luck during my period of being down. I am fine already. the most i go take a cds that only requires 3weeks lors. Yarhs. Not to worry about me. :) thanks readers of mine ! do remember to tag on my board ok. be it a stranger or enemy, i certainly welcome you. :) much loves, jenuinejen. studied on the topic " stress " for psycho. I can say that wan is my best topic for 2morrow's test. Please come out more on stress please !! :D LOL ! okayz. just check my temperature just now. a slight fever. wahs. the psycho theory really very accurate lahs. Stress does cause illness ! it is call a psychophysiological disorder ! Its ok because u know what? I would use a emotion-focused way in order to cope with stress ! alrites. shall not bored u guys with more of my psychology theories. just using my short break to blog ! got to get back to study. Gonna mug like crazy today. tomorrow wake up earlier to revise. and i hope 2mr can eat with my family members lehs ! new year dinner. *wishes wishes wishes* hurhurhur ~ back to studying. BYE ! thanks for those who wish me luck ! mayb blessings be with you ! Hohoho ~ :D stressed. really stressed. going psychotic due to psycho. i keep telling myself. i will pass psycho ! i will pass psycho ! i will pass psycho ! but there is just a inner me saying i will fail psycho. :( mayb subconsciously i dun tink i can pass. :( tiff said that i shouldn't be thinking negative and try my best. but just cannot control lahs. :( sigh. i know i just said i will be going hiatus but i cannot stop blogging lahs. very addictive wan u noe ! i suppose to do comm skills ppt as well as macroE tutorial ! after that i would be able to study for my psycho. I berriezz stresseddd okayyzz ! i have not idea how to study so many things at one time. Common sense? i dunno. MCQ cannot common sense. =.= studied with mei ting today. she keep prompting me to study lahs, study. I say : I give up. :( ok lahs. it was a spur of the moment lahs. i wouldn't give up till the very last minute de ! really... errr.. okayzz.. i try... lol ! =D k lahs. i go do what i suppose to do now. erms.. mayb not now, after dinner bahs and watch abit tv and relac relac 1st. ahahaha. and i promise no watching " boys before flower " 2day ! yarhs yarhs yarhs ! k bye bye ! good luck everyone in studying ! *** P.S. he is really very very gentleman lehs, apart from his good looks ! =D ahahha.. not VERY good looking but good looking lahs. very good impression on him ! LOL........ ain't mentioning who....... :P BYE EVERYONEEE. :) I have got a poll now ! say whooooo ! in hot pink ! whoo. love it. Please do the poll that is on the sidebar okies? ANYONE CAN DO IT BECAUSE I WOULDN'T WHAT YOU HAVE CHOOSEN ! really ! (: please help me do my poll ! thank you very much ! i better have 400 poll results hors ! since i hav 400 readers. :P [ not kidding k ! ] ahaha ! please do the poll even you dun bother to tagggg... okies. will b studying for upcoming exams. wun blog much during this period (: ON HIATUS ; BE BACK ON END FEB WILL SOLVE THE FUCKING PROBLEM OF MY BLOG SOON ! update update: i have solve the problem le; can view my blog le. still on hiatus though ! due to upcoming examinations. ooh yarhs ! change to a simple pink blogskin. pink is me and i like its simplicity. oh well ! its the content that matters ryte? anyway, thanks for telling me that my blog cannot be viewed ! (: hi ! i better blog out my thoughts before i forget them. I know it will be a lengthy post again. but i don't write these down, wouldn't my blog lose its purpose? it is my ranting ground and record down my thoughts. perhaps not much people would read it. but i still want to say what i feel. Did my comm skills individual presentation about a memorable person which is my father. I thought everything can be presented successfully. Nevertheless, the fragile me cried at the moment i started, making everyone shocked until dunno what. perhaps some would think i choose this topic to attract attention n have plan to cry during the presentation. I swear i didn't. I have prepared wat i have wanted to say, as well as a script. I thought i wouldn't cry because its has been so many years since he was gone. Moreover, when i am preparing for the script, I did not cry. listened to mariah carey's bye bye also nvr cry. I dunno when its gonna be turn, i can feel those tear glands coming on the way already. I just can't continue the presentation anymore. alright i did attempt to present but was choking with words. Those preparation were so much, but was still useless at the very end. But i meant what i say: cherish your loves ones because you wouldn't know when they would leave you. of course i dun meant that anyone would think i purposely chose this topic or whatever, i just putting things in an analogy. Reason of choosing this topic is because its on the comm skills book which i randomly chose it. Oh well perhaps not random cos i have no topics to choose so i just chose it. And i thought i could share with some parts and parcel of my life to the class. sigh. wrong topic i have chosen i must say. Sorry to those people after me are presenting because i sort of like interupted their presentation. i am fine really. i'll stay strong. mentioning about attention seeking. i have received several comments about me today. Yes, i would like to admit that I am vain. I have never deny this fact. Yes, i am ugly and fat too which i know it myself. But i never wanted to attract attention as what some commented. Yes i know this fact and even way more. As what was commented on my fashion sense... Ok... correction, it should way of dressing : very vain, sense of dressing so attention seeking, somemore so fat and ugly still want to wear until " like that". Firstly I do not understand by "like that". Meaning? Very skimpy? I wear very striking clothes to school like prom gown? I dunno. No. i never wear skimpy clothes. Yes i do wear sleeveless and dresses to school. But i dun understand it? some poly school mates wear like that too ryte? My dresses are casual dresses that i thought it was convenient for my morning lessons when i just have to slip on one piece in order to save time. And i dun tink i am wearing skimpy clothes because i would wear a tube in low cuts and i don't have a " mini skirt " that is like really mini. the short skirt i have is just slightly above my knees. perhaps only 5 fingers? And to the comment of "vain". I got say i not vain mehs? Yeahs, i do put on makeup and make an effort on my dressing. This is becos i think i am very fat and ugly that i have to use clothes and cosmetics to cover my insecurity. What i say its true, believe it or not, its your choice. And so it was argued that " so fat and ugly still wear until like that" ryte? what? so fat cannot wear " nice clothings "? ( i assume your "like that" meant "nice clothing" or what you think as "attention-seeking" clothing. Whatever seriously. what kind of logic is that? Fat and ugly pple cannot choose to wear dress, wear sleeveless mehs? So if they wear like that to school is because they want to attract attention? So fat people cannot wear dresses, cannot wear sleeveless, cannot wear striking colours and cannot wear other colours beside black izzit? Oh, now i get it. So fat and ugly people cannot wear "nice-clothing" lahs, very attention seeking wan lehs. Ok, mayb i am the only fat and ugly person who wears so " attention-seeking" Thats your opinion. I shall not say that you are wrong. But to me, i make an effort in my dressing simply just meant that i am vain and insecured with my looks but not " attention-seeking" I seriously hate this word, because this is an assumption about me and when it is not true. Perhaps, i attracted your attention but it does not imply that i am attention seeking. I hope the difference can be seen. Just something more to be mentioned. During my secondary one days, i would go out with my friends in very baggy jeans as well as a just an ultra normal t-shirts. Yes, at that time i was way fatter cos keep binging on food and dunno how 2 control weight. Very ugly also cos eyelids not developed and triple chin. Yes, really. Moreover, i stil received bad comments though even i was an "super normal fat girl". It was commented: " So fat and ugly already still don't want to make an effort to dressup. "everytime go out wear the same jeans not sianz mehs? " "hair so unkept" "pimple face" these comments are still remembered and i think its way worser than " attention-seeking". Can you believe it? i bought my first short skirt during end of secondary two? And i started to concern about my skincare only at secondary three? And i started dieting in secondary two because i want to wear skirt with less fat legs. Very low self esteem on looks, so can i still be describe as "attention-seeking"? anyway this entry is not to change any opinions on me. Of course "attention seeking" can still be commented or whatever. this entry is to rant out why i am so vain, zi lian and whatever "attention-seeking" that what is commented. can i be not vain? i can't do it. it has become a habit to put on cosmetics and making an effort to dress up. I think making an effort to dress up is good because i can feel more confident and not facing comments like " no sense of style" or " cannot dress properly". I like it when i have to shop for clothes, i like to apply makeup on my face. I am vain, ugly fat but so? haha. i think i m jenuinely nice. And it does not mean that i dun retailate, you can attack me. I m not soft, i am just tolerating. When my tolerance is at the limit, don't blame me for being not nice. you can choose to disagree completely what i say. you can choose to dislike me for my character or whatever. Its not like your comment is going to kill me or anything. Of course, i wouldn't say " it doesn't bother me because if its really not bothering me, i wouldn't type out such a long entry." But seriously its is just a small impact in my life. " Life goes on, even the whole world is against you ". my quote. (: much loves, jenuinejen :D nah. not using vulgarities cos i used alot in msn already. :( this is meant for me myself n diary, so u can skip the whole entire post. Ok mayb half, cos i will update about today also. Dear diary, I am a stupid girl today. perhaps i have been stupid ever since i step into poly. alrites, i am not stupid but i m blur. Its my fault already, but lying to the teacher makes me more in the fault. ok, i am sorry. i shldn't hav call the teacher. what i can do is study hard for my upcoming common test. i cried alot already, infront of my friends. quite paisehs lehs. aiyos. anyway no point crying over spilled milk. i have to study hard for my common test and brush up on my presentation skills. sigh perhaps its fated. ________________________________________________________ bad day today. but i have great friends like tiffany, siew yin, wan ling and mei ting to help me. Thanks tiffany and wan ling to calm me down. thanks siew yin and wan ling to console me and stop me from crying and laughing at the same time. the person whom i want to thank most is : FOO MEI TING seriously ! my girlfriend ! thanks so much like seriously for helping me check n send n whatever lahs. U dun have to say sorry because its not your fault at all ok !? (: i will study hard de. And also thanks desmond for giving me teacher number even though he wun read my blog. ahaha ! and lucky u xiao xuan to get your baby back ! dun lose it again ok ! if not yr baby call other pple daddy/mummy already ! congratzz to u ya ! comm skill retest sucks, think will fail. :P nvm lahs ! ahaha ! i will study harder for everything else lors ! HAHAHA ! byebye gpa 3.5 or 3.8 and byebye 1000 dollars or 2000 dollars. byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye. whatever whatever whatever lahs. MUST DO TODAY: BUS STATS ONLINE TUTORIAL, RA2 TUTORIAL, AND STUDY PSYCHOLOGY. b4 dere i go eat first la k? (: ciao. smile jen smile ! :)))))): |
tomorrow last day of comm skills lesson already...
I certainly prefer him in curly hair. Whooo.. swoons at my Dao Ming Si, my Domiyoji, my Joon Pyo. :D and he looks like jerry yan ryte? haha. but dun compare him and jerry yan. both of dem gives a different feel.