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Thursday, April 30, 2009 - 12:55 AM
very very lonely. :(
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i am very very very lonely during tutorials. not to say my classmates aren't nice but it is just that i do not have a chance to really talk to them yet. and yeahs, they seem to have clique of their own. fitting in just doesn't feel nice. the feeling is kinda uncomfortable to me.

anyway... lunched with fina and dilys during break. lunch was very very rushy bcos they want to pei me to classroom. seriously, i am very very very touched even to the verge of crying.

i went in to the class. i took a look back to the door and saw the both of them have not left yet. I waved goodbye. Haha. they were talking so loud and i tink i heard dilys saying something like: aye.. i still want to see her lehs ! see her settle down first ". =.="

LOLOLOLOLOL. dunno got any of my classmates heard or not. cos its seriously damn farnie lehs !! not farnie mehs. It reminded me of my first day in kindergarden when my father brought me there and stand outside of the class and looking at me through the window. When he walked away already, i cried out loud.

When the two of them left, i wanted to cry. Of course not for the same reason in kindergarden lahs. Its more of touching. I am really very touched. :')
When they say they are bringing me to class, i thought they meant walk me to business school or something. Nevertheless, they brought me to right outside in my classroom and even not leaving immediately when I went in.
I am so lucky that I have awesome friends. really.
thank you dilys and fina very much. they are much appreciated. :)

after tut, i ranted out to wanling and xiaoxuan. I told them about what dilys and fina did. they say that my friends are really very good sia. Yes, i truly agree. =D

2mr.. 4 hours with my classmates in 1st Avenue eh. I really very scared. Hope 2mr won't be so odd bahs. technically is today already..

ANYWAY...
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY SERENE. =D
DUN BE SO CHILDISH ALREADY HORS. SO OLD LIAOZ STILL CHILDISH. ROFL.

P.S. thanks xiaoxuan too, for the email. :)



Wednesday, April 29, 2009 - 1:17 AM
没有如果
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i changed my blog song. to fish leong's mei you ru guo. however, assy imeem only allows 30seconds of the song to be published. :(

k nvm. watch the music video peepz. =D
its very nice !! cos got ruan jing tian !! =D



my favourite song lyrics would be: " the world's longest distance is not between the living and death, it is when I am just right beside you, yet you don't know I... Love... you.."
(paisehs for the bad literally translated lyrics. my eng is c6 standard lehs !! Xp )

dun you simply agree with this statement? I definitely agree..

ok lahs. its 1.25am liaoz. omg. yet i am still blogging? I gotta go do my tutorials le. =(
so tired sia.
k lahs. byebye.



Monday, April 27, 2009 - 4:03 PM
Back to blogging !!
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Yo Yo Yo !! =D miss me or not?
Haha. it has been like how many weeks I have not blog ah?
k lahs. less than half a month only. =.=

i tink my highest record of not blogging is around more than few months i tink for my previous blog.
But wow ! i just checked nuffnang ah. last week still got 149 views lehs. Kinda surprised that even i nvr blog, u all still will check. =)

Holidays for me are fabulous. I went out alot with my girlfriends which is really awesome n took like thousands of photos. Its like omfg now lahs. I just uploaded the pics which is making me not know where to start blogging sia !! aiyos. zen me ban? How i wish someone can blog it out for me. Anyway. i gotta upload some pics to facebook. So do check there out alright? and add me in facebook if u have not add me. :)

Oh well, school started liaoz. In fact this is the 1st day of 2nd week. During the 1st week, hung out with tiffany they all, it was fun as usual. And yeahs, miss them too cos long time no see le. =D
And yes ! I am very very very happy bcos girlfriends are still so close even in year2 lahs ! omg. usually we would be like holidays very close and school days like drift abit liaoz. den holidays back den close back again. LOL. but now it is different. Hope this lasts bahs ! =D its really awesome to be in the same school with your best friends even though not same course.

Oh ! today i taken my first tutorial with my year 2 classmates. I guess i was kinda shy bcos i have not really talked to them yet. I know i look like some pple that would easily start a convo with pple n proactive in making friends. But in fact i am not someone like tat lehs ! I am actually shy (REALLY). Ok lahs. 2mr got apel lesson. hope can bond bond with 2r04. Oh yes. this is my 6th year in the 4th class. Like wow ryte? =D
Hope my classmates are nice bunch of pple. wish me luck peepz ! =D

Yahs. thanks for the people who read my blog and asked what happened to me and why i so emo n stuff. Really much appreciated even though i dunno if u pple really do care about me or not. But much thanks. I am really alright now. And i would be active in blogging soon bcos i realised i really love blogging lehs. so hooked to it although now hooked in facebook. Xp
During this week ah.. Whenever i go out... the first thing came to my mind was to BLOG. but i was thinking. aiyas. sld blog or not or sld not blog?

Ckj has made up her mind. she shall blog. =D
be it something that is on the surface or something that hits right through my heart.


One photo from my handphone to patronise all of u for the time being. Xp

would be back soon. stay tune. =D


check out my fb account for time being: http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/profile.php?id=1459791077&ref=profile



Thursday, April 16, 2009 - 10:46 PM
i had enough.
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this is my 101th blog post in my blog.

I am very emo now and feel like crying. U prolly do not care even i go and die now...

But i am just gonna give a piece of my mind.

Initially, when i started blogging, my plan was to put up just the photos and using them to express my thoughts. Nevertheless, I actually "blog" and gain a number of readers of myself. My blog are mainly outings, who i went with, what did i do, what have i eaten and blah blah blah. Yes, I do love blogging about that but it just didn't feel right becos it did not fufil my purpose of " expressing thoughts"

I wanna express how i feel, i wanna express what I think, i wanna express my problems. But I realised those belong to a diary instead of a blog.

My blog is too "on the surface", i feel that there is no substance in it.

I wanna express my thoughts but on a contradiction side, I do not want people to know fully about me as a person. Changing a wordpress blog and have protected entries instead? I dun really wanna do it becos that would be too of a diary. I want it to stay as a blog enabling pple to know me instead of judging me b4 u know me.

I love blogging about outings and stuffs but i wanna blog about expressing my thoughts too. Pictures are nice to be blogged about but I do not want this to be every of my entries. I truly envy those who are able to blog those thoughts they would want to express becos I do not think I can truly do that.
I wanna blog a whole load of wordy entries without a single photo but has successfully expresses my thoughts. I wanna blog for venting my anger without anyone getting offended and sad of.

some words are just too mean for me to take it, but i guess this is the harsh genuine reality.

it just hurts me when you do not understand me, but what hurts me even more is you threw the trust i have on you away.


P.S. Will not be blogging for some time. I need a break. I prolly upload photos on facebook, i guess? I dunno lahs. I am a noob in facebook. Anyway, I will come back to my blog soon and I will delete this entry when I come back becos this entry xibei emo. =O



Saturday, April 11, 2009 - 11:53 PM
Malaysia, truly asia =)
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Caution: Before proceeding my entry, please see this caution message. There are some pictures of chinese tombstones and as well as chinese dead man paper items. If you are easily offended or you are afraid to look at such things. Please do not continue reading my below entry.

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Yoo hoo.. I am blogging about my malaysia trip from 26th March to 4th April. Like finally ryte? Lol !

First picture of the entry:

My " air-asia ticket " =D
Haha. Could you people just take a look at the ticket ! Administration fee and airport tax is 78SGD and the luggage charge thingy is 12SGD and what about the airplane fare? Its 10SGD !!
Could you just say oh my fuck? Seriously 10 dollars eh !! Freaking cheap lahs. 10 dollars is not even enough for me to take a taxi from my house to marina square man ! Yes sgd 10 can bring me from S'pore to KL lors. The total amounts to 100 SGD with those stupid ass taxes like airport taxes and luggage thingy. Please lahs, i only used 10 mins of internet in changi airport T1 lahs. Charge 78SGD for what sia? Popeye chicken ate also not free. 78SGD charge so ex for what. 10 dollars enuff le lahs. Kaoz !!

Yes, 100 SGD is still consider cheap lahs i tink ! For an airplane ride. I seriously wonder how airasia earn money sia ! I reckon is from food bahs. Cos 10SGD to fly is seriously too cheap liaoz. Even the diesel also cannot buy lors.

So now people can consider of taking an airplane ride to KL instead of taking coach. If you take 1st class coach ryte, its already 90 bucks liaoz. Might as well just add another 10 bucks to take aeroplane instead. Its definitely more comfy becos u dun nid to sit until your ass crack lahs. And its so so so much faster, like 45mins to 1 hours only? Seriously take an airplane !!!

Oh, btw, this is fare from singapore to kl. The airplane fare from KL to singapore is only 18RM !! Oh my fuck !! How airasia earn money sia? Seriously bless airasia and fuck airport tax !!

k. enough of promoting airasia.

I am inside of the plane and saying goodbye to Singapore. =D
Sky very chio hor?

That was my first day out, 26th march. It was really coolz cos i took 2 planes that day cos i transisting in KL airport and going to Miri, Sarawak ! Ate Old Town White Coffee in KL airport. Food so so only, but their butter-kaya break was fantabulous man !! One day i should seriously walk to ECP to eat !! =D

That day reached Miri at 10pm in my cousins' freaking cool bungalow and I am so glad to see my paternal grandmother doing well for her health. :)

During the days in Sarawak, my cousin took my mother and I to go the charity chinese orchestra show.
It is like in a lecture hall. Our seats got foldable tables somemore. -.-
I guess its for seminar or something. Yaps. Mummy paid 20RM each for the tix. Its for charity u know !! =D

Music is coolz lahs. But not really my type of music i guess. The conductor you see on the first 2 pics ryte? He is only 16 years old. Freaking talented lahs. He knows how to play like 3 chinese musical instruments? And he actually can conduct le lehs !! Wah piang !! However, he look damn "chao-lao" I was telling my mother about it and she agrees ~ She even say I confirm look like his "mei mei" if I stand beside him lors ! =D

Next I will show you pictures that I tink are ultra coolz.. !!!

LV-inspired bags !!

A black laptop

A set of accessories which consists of necklace, bracelet, rings, spectacles and more. As you can see there is a handphone inside.

Foot Massager

Set of cosmetics that are from the ancient times.

Yeaps. I am so sorry of these few blury pics becos i was outside. So i only have my handphone to take pictures of it.
You may wonder? What is so special about all these? Its just normal stuffs wat.

now i am telling you... These items are paper items which are to be burnt for the people who are already dead. Something like offerings. I swear those items look really real lahs. Especially those LV bags. From far, i thought that those were real bags. Dun play play ah, live in hell also must wear branded bags wan okies. Next time I die ryte, i will ask my descendants to burn me LV, gucci and prada ah. =P

Yaps. It is a really cool side of a chinese culture i guess.

Price wise, i tink some items are really expensive. Paper money is still reasonable for their price. But items like a limosine with a chauffer ryte costs 37RM lehs ! Abit siao lahs to buy a paper stuff for so much money. 37RM can buy me Maybelline mascara liaoz lors. Zzz.

However these items are 3D, so the creators really spent alot of their time. Really very creative lors. Cheers for them ! =D

On 29th March, it was a really a memorable day for me u noe !! Like seriously.
Yes, that day was my best girl friend, afina's bday. Wish her happy bday on sms and apologize to her that I cannot celebrate her bday.

Well, that was not the thing that was memorable but its becos I went to Brunei for the very first time of my life !!!!!

Woke up at 5am that day ! To drive from Sarawak to Brunei. Its like Singapore to Johore like that. Yaps.

reason for going there: to visits tombs of my great grandparents that are burried in Brunei.

yes, first time going to brunei yet going to their cemetries. =.=

The super shag me at around 6am. :(

Like seriously in Sarawak ryte, the sun come out damn early like 6am plus. And they "go home damn early also, 6pm go home liaoz. 7pm is completely dark. Singapore's sun comes at 7am plus plus and go home at 7.30pm plus plus. Its really very different.

And guess what? CKJ is wearing track pants sia !!! Ohhh.. I photoshop my flesh until damn bronze which i really love it man !! =D

In Brunei...
Stopover at this coffeeshop and have breakfast at around 6plus to 7. I swear it looks like 8 o clock in singapore lahs. Sun already like come out liaoz. zzz. So glary. :(
Breakfast damn cheap lahs !

6 bowls of luncheon meat noodles+ 6 cups of drinks which consists of teh-si, kopi-c, cham and milo+ one big piece of bread= 16 Brunei dollars only !!
(If you are wondering.. 1 SGD=1 Brunei dollar)

Cheap or not u tell me lahs? Eat so much yet 16dollars only lehs !! Its becos Brunei is a tax free country. =D simply just love the fact.


Proof that i am in Brunei. =D

Brunei King and Queen. Picture taken from that coffee shop.
Its really coolz that if you know someone from royalty lahs. Imagine that.

Headed to their "mama shop" , shampoo imported from m'sia. So shampoo not cheap. But their hershey one brunei dollar only eh !! Singapore sell 1.50-1.70 lors. like wtf. stupid taxes lahs. I also saw Body Shop there. Unfortunately its not opened as it is too early. :(
I bet its cheaper than s'pore ones lors.

After breakfast, went to the CEMMETRY. ahahaha !

Wore this super ridiculous hat to block from the glary sun. Brunei is seriously damn fucking hot lahs. It is 40 degress celsius ok ! I looked at the thermometer is my cousin's car. And yes ! she was switching on the aircon. =.=
Seriously very hot !! Way hotter than s'pore and m'sia. !!
Great Grand Father; My father's grandfather.
Never seen him b4 ! According to my uncle, he passed away when he is still in primary school. Yeahs. So actually most of us who are paying respects, have never seen him b4. But come on ! We must respect our ancestors lahs !! Cannot forget out roots ! =D

With my cousin. Dunno who suggested taking photos nia. Seriously cannot open my eyes and its so weird to camwhore with a tombstone? LOL.

With my mother. Zhen de fei chang qi guai sia !!

Great Grand mother's tomb. My aunt ask why i so biased nvr take picture with her. =.=

Seriously berrie hot u know. Plus must burn kim zua and paper stuffs. Plus the hot sun in brunei really can burn one to roast pig sia.

Left Brunei around 11am. Yaps. Spent less than 5 hours in that country lurs. I must go there one day i swear !!

Back to Miri at around 12pm which I suddenly got the sensation to lao-sai sia. Initially i thought its normal stomachache. After lao sai, i felt ok liao den went to eat chicken rice. Chicken rice was very very nice lahs. Keep munching on the "sauce". My cousin drop me and mum in the mall. During the car ride, i felt that my tummy is like shaking like fuck u noe. After I went to the mall, i went in to the loo to throw out. =(

Bought sour plums. Seriously doesn't help in restricting vomit. In the end, have to asked my cousin, kah wai to fetch me back home cos feel really unwell. Xibei sad lahs cos cannot go walk walk in their mall. =(

Mummy said that the "sauce" from chicken rice is chicken oil, which i bu xi guan to eat and somemore i kena heat stroke from Brunei.

Yes, 29 March is such a jinx date lahs ! Missed fina's bday, went brunei with heat stroke coming back, eat chicken oil which i bu xi guan to eat and now become damn fucking sick.
Guess what? And on that day there is an important dinner at night lahs ! =(
My tummy felt really bad and I really dun wanna go. My aunt kinda " force " me to go cos the table is paid liaoz.

Yes, i throw out as much as possible b4 going to dinner and ate two panadols. Panadols are very very very effective lors in stopping the pain !! =D

Dinner was really very good. But i dun dare eat oily food like fried chicken, stewed pork and even mutton. I hate mutton meat like seriously. I do not eat mutton. Yucks.
drink 3 bowls of sharkfin soup=shiok ! =D
Credits to panadol that took away my stomach pain for that few hours. =D

Took pics with my cuzzy too !! With Kah Rou Jie Jie. =D
Dunno why my specs xibei down lors. Yahs, i seriously sick until no energy to apply makeup and put contacts. Even worse, i wore shorts to the dinner. Like wtf ! Thank goodness its m'sia. Xp

Anyway, Kah Rou jie jie is super talented in her photoshop skills lahs seriously. She is currenly taking a diploma in website designing? If i a right lahs. lol.
Feel abit paisehs sia when i photoshop our pics. My skills are like so so so mediocre compared to hers man !!

On 30th March, went to pay respects to elders in the cemmetry again. This time, it is in Miri itself.

Grandfather; Left during when I am five plus. Memories of him... Not much... But i remembered I used to love him alot alot as a kid and he dotes on me too. Becos i am his youngest grandchild at the moment of time. =D

My papa. hais.. sianz.. I really dun wanna elaborate abt the details. Yahs. I am really very sorry that i felt restless when I am paying respects to him becos I am really sick n the heat is killing me.
I wouldn't say i remember everything about him. But yes, i do remember him. =) And I love him berrie much.

That's about the gist of my Sarawak Trip.

Went to KL on 31st March ! =D
Went to Mid-Valley mall for shopping. Seriously I went there like few hundred times liaoz lurs. I am so so so familiar with there lahs. ! I keep bugging my mother to bring me to Pavilion instead which got F21 lahs ! I nvr go M'sia F21 b4 !! Sianz. In the end only one day go shopping lors. Agrr.. next time I plan the itenary properly. And my mother xibei what lahs. Wanna take 2RM bus instead of cab. Waiting for bus takes around 1 hours lehs. =.= The frequency is like agrrr... Yahs... Time cost wasted liaoz lors.. Must as well cab. Cab is like so cheap in malaysia lahs.

Mid Valley is fine but i really dun wan go there liaoz le lors. Everytime go KL is go there shop. Go until can puke liao. =.=
I wanna go other places like Pavilion and One Utama Mall !! =(

I will show you guys my purchases from Mid Valley mall and night market later.. =D

Just gotta take a picture of myself. =D

Yahs. Also went to pay respects to my maternal grandfather. No pics becos there is no tombstones. He was cremated and his ashes was placed in a pagoda. But still must bear the burning heat of the offerings !! Its like really hot lehs. !!

My grandmother xibei funny lahs, he called a young man working in the pagoda there as "uncle". I lol like fuck lahs. he is like 20plus only !!?? Then that young man told my grandmother: Auntie, I not uncle, I am lang zai ( handsome boy in cantonese ) LMAO !! =D

Alright ! Shall show u pictures I have taken during my KL trip =D, basically its all photos of my maternal grandmother's dog ! Bobby ! =D

Handsome Old Dog !! =D

My mother, Her mother and Her mother's dog. =D

My mother sat like a chao ah lian in this pic. :O

Looking fat in these two pics sia ! :(

Take a look at the dog for these pics. My grandmother was like forcefully pulling bobby to take a picture. He is very camera shy and doesn't like/want to take picture. Everytime camera come out, he sure run. remind me of someone i know in sec sch sia ! Bobby very kelian lahs. My grandmother is like pulling two of his legs. I swear I head him whimper in pain lahs. And his bones look so fragile and yet my grandmother pull like siao. But seriously my grandmother loves bobby alot ok !! =D Everytime buy treats for him and dote him like siao ~ Sometimes even better than me lors.

Bobby is a well-liked dog. I scared he will leave soon sia. =(
My mother say his breed average age is 13 years old ! =(
He is already 10 years old liao !! How how how? :(
Thus, I wish he can live until 20 years old and pei me grandmother as long as possible :)

Went back to Singapore at 4th April. =)
Afina is damn nice lahs. Straight away sms me on that day cos she remembers that day i coming back. :)

I will cut straight to the point to photos.

let me draw your attention to my PURCHASES !!! =D

Face Shop is like having big sales lahs. However I am not into their makeup so i bought nail polishes instead ! its really very cheap eh. I bought 10 different colours, gave 3 to mei ting. =D

Pink Doraemon Satin PJ. Not cheap lahs. But i tink its very cute and nice material to sleep in. Its two piece, one spag dress and a robe. Gotta wear this during sleepover in fina's house. :)

P.S. the craze of doraemon is the past is no longer here with me. I just find this pj very cute so i bought it. I sorta not very into doraemon liaoz. So pls people, dun gimme doraemon stuffs seriously. I remembered during my 15th birthday, almost everyone gave me pressies to do with doraemon.

Grey Polo; Blue and white baby doll fake two piece and hearts oversized tee.

Ralph Lauren Polo.

Cute tank tops ! Much loves.

Checks are so loved please !!
( From left to right) Checkered Hoodie; Checkered Dress ( too short for me though ); Checkered jacket.
I siao or not !! I love checks so much please !!!!

I call this cardigan; Chap ba lang cardigan. Dunno what are the words there either.

My LV *coughs coughs* non-authentic pouch.

Handmade braceles. Only things bought in Miri. :(

Presents for my girlfriends. =D NON-REVEALED ! :p

Floral Bag ! =D I love it very much but i also dunno why my girlfriends keep laughing at my bag. Its nice lors !!

Shoes from Vincci ! :D
(From left to right): mama's red sandals; my gems sandals; green stars slippers.
Love that gems sandals to the max; best sandals seen in my whole life. Charles and Keith is selling a similar pair. However, the super assy them do not have it in my size lahs. Screw them !!

Best buy: Gem sandals of course ! I love it so much !! Jen in my name represents gem. Gem=me ! So i love gems. :DD
I wanted to buy the charles and keith wan but they do not have it in my size. :(
super sad. But hey hey Vincci has a similar shoe at a way lower price. The price is initally 59RM which i tink its considered cheap already cos C&K sells 34SGD. But guess what. Vincci give me a 10RM rebate for spending more than 50RM. So my shoe costs only 49RM !! cheap or not??? :D

Other items bought: Bath butter from Body Shop; length mascara from Body Shop and durian chocs and famous amos cookies. :)

Short Conclusion on the trip:
Generally fun. But fallen sick wasn't fun. I thought initally is cos i offended some ghosts in the cemetry or wat sia? super scared. I would wanna thank my relatives in sarawak helping me to "take care of my father" and I wish my paternal grandmother would live a super long long life happily. dun tink too much negative stuffs since her health is getting better.

My maternal grandmother also ! She also must stay happy and cheerful with her dog bobby. She should seriously smoke less also ! She smokes alot sia. One packet one day. Imagine that in Singapore. Of course cannot ask her dun smoke lahs. She smokes since 8 years old lehs. Cannot quit liaoz lors. But smoke less is a need !! If not health will deteoriate !! :(

K lahs. Here i penned down my fucking long entry. I hope u have fun reading it or even just scanning through it.
Will be back for more entries soon. So yahs. :D

P.S. spent like 3 days to prepare this entry? Like wth sia !!